Fear

Seriously, i am not sure why,
maybe because i have just read daphne's post, or because christmas is drawing near,
which means 9-11jan is getting near too.
idk,
i guess i am someone with constant worries, i guess if you make me stay at home, i will go berserk.
Really.


The wait for the results is just too too nerve wrecking.
i wonder if i will hyperventilate on the resukt day itself.
Hope not.
i don't know, if i am left alone,
i will let my mind go wild,
and these few days, the constant anxious feeling for the results is making me develop butterflies in the stomach.
however, unlike daphne, i have no cofidence of saying that i think everything is ok,
see, that is probably one of the reasons for more fear,
i can't even say that the tests are ok.
that is something not ok.
i start to fear that what is they are especially strict this year,
and all my english tenses are corrected to the core,
i start to worry if i have made alot of careless mistakes for maths
i start to worry that my inferences maybe wrong for ss and history,
i start to worry that i might be overconfident for POA, the subject i have the highest faith in.
i start to worry if such simple questions for biology might actually be more deep,
just that we took it too easily.
i start to worry if i gave stupid answers for chemistry, and if i have gave proper terms and stuff.
i have too many things to worry.
and actually, i might actually say that i will be fine to fail 1 or 2,
esp chem and amath.
but in fact, i am not.
i want to pass them,
and want a B3/4
not a high score i guess,
but good enough to console myself.
i saw people posting about them getting best acheievement, best improvement, etc,
and i really really start to worry,
did i really work hard enough?
probably not.
but i know that it is all too late to regret,
and all i can hope is for the results to be good.


bell curve.
i fear that.
what if by right, for biology, we are supposed to get A1 but because everyone in the whole nation is doing far too welll and all my marks are pulled down by 5-10 marks?
will i cry on that day?
will typing this post here and idling my life away actually pull add on to my karma and make me have worser results?
honestly, i can't even recall what i studied,
does it shows that i have not studied enough?
what will i do if my marks are not good enough?
how will i face my parents,teachers,friends?
all this constant worrying is forcing me to stand on the edge.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Discrimination

Discrimination.
Well, i knew that one day, when i step into society, i will come across this,
but seriously,
i never expect it to be so soon.
So if you guys don't know, recently, i have started working.


well,
i have really got a taste of society.
For people without mental preparation, and have ideal imagination of the ideal society,
wakeup.
society is not as perfect as what you think,
mainly because there is no such thing as school rules to protect you, to help you gain your rightful rights, and also because there is no perfect textbook to fully explain in details how to react to every little encounters, and those, are for you to explore and learn.



First and for all, the very very best guide to survive in society is to heed your senior's advice.
good or bad, there is no harm listening to them.
leave it to yourself to decide, to try. Sometimes, it may go against your pride, but that is just society. The is no perfect right or wrong, if there is, perhaps the better one to follow is customers are always right.
but whoever who adapt to that idea is not right.
confusing issnt it?


well, customers are people who gave you chance to earn. So by right, they have all the rights to ask for anything, since we are basically living off from them.
but on the other hand, if customers have such mentality, the world is gonna change.
customers will grow more and more demanding,
we always tell those "rich bastards" that money can't buy everything, but secretly, we do hide a part of those "rich bastards" mental ideas in our minds i guess :/
denying?
If not why are we constantly complaining of low quality or bad service?


well, you tell those "rich bastards" that somethings cannot be bought with money right?
i throw those words right back at you.
What are the "somethings"? the television is only good at portraying love and relationship.
but they always forgot there are others,
Time, experience, sincereity, hardwork.
those cannot be bought with money.
you may have said that you have paid more for better services, but seriously, that command may not be that simple.
have you ever thanked the ones working so hard for you?
If you have no candidates, i have a few.
those lowly paid cleaners, construction workers, maids.


Yes, you have paid for them to work,
but do you know that instead of giving more money, a simple thank you will brigthen up their day?
by making their life better, they will start to love their job and want to do their best in it.
simple right? Everytime when i am doing cashiering, aunties who approach me with stern eyes makes me stressful and i will not even dare to smile, my movements are stiff and i will want to avoid mistakes.
but whenever you want to avoid mistakes, they invite them,
so yes, more mistakes and more stern eyes.
but when friendly aunties approach me, giving me a smile and telling me things like, " Oh you are new here? Be careful! take your time!" or something, makes me smile and i will want to make sure i provide her with the best service i can give.
i love them.
money may give a temporary boost but the upward movement of the edge of the lips are more comforting.


LOL, i have just realised whatever i have typed so far have no link to my title yet.
wow, sidetracked much? xD
ok.

1. Discrimination against new workers.
Whether it is between workers and workers or workers and customers,
i hate it they scan you with those suspicious eyes.
Customers would go to the counter with the senior staff instead of the counter with the new staff, they just hate us. And even if they really ended up here, they will look at each and every action of yours and looks like they are on stand-by to scream if you ever make a mistake.
between workers and workers, they basically, don't trust you and will take every single chance to try to correct you. i do appreciate those advices but please mind those glares. Even 3 year olds understand facial expressions.


2. I hate it when customers discriminate those who cannot speak english.
well, i am educated, but do not go around criticising those who are not english educated.
and you know what, newsflash, those who are really educated will not do what you did.
well this specific incident ytd pissed me off.


the 1st customer was a old man, he bought quite a few items and some ever even heavy.
he looks like he was in his 70s or so and yeah, we really cannot blame him if he have difficulties moving his items from the counter to his trolley, or have difficulties hearing the price, or even difficulties looking for his money. Anyone who sees that will understand and who will rush an old man? So after him, there is this indian guy, as the old man was moving his items to the trolley, he was alrdy complaining " WALAOEH WHY SO LONG?!?" very very loudly.
how loud? all the customers looked up, including the other cashiers.
that loud.


nvm, when it was his turn, i guess he did not put the item properly or it just happens to be wet and hard to hold and my senior slipped the cucumber or something. It broke into two and my senior apologised and asked if he wants to change.
he goes " HUH? WALAOEH! WHAT? " and points and stares at my senior, my senior carried on apologising and asking if he wants to change, and i asked too,
and you know he say what?
he say, " WALAOEH< YOU FROM CHINA ISSIT? DUNNO HOW TO SPEAK ENGLISH AH?" and my senior was stunned for a short few seconds, i can catch that she was hurt in her eyes, i was boiling and she was good, she continued apologising and ask if he wants to change and this time, more anxiously. You know what that guy did?
he just say KNN! then scold some other language and stomp off youknow!
thank god the next customer was nice and even made a joke out of it, saying" That one siao one la!" which is very sweet of him as it made us smiled.
but still, the impact is made.


ever since the first day, i can see the sadness in their eyes,
they are there for some reasons, it is not because they like this job.
most of them are not english educated and you can really see that they are even envious that we have schools and stuff.
Even if they are not very well educated, they worked really hard to make up for it, when i stand at the counter, i can see small little notes lying around, and such criticism really disgusts me.
a person's hard work should not is neglected just because of their education.
In the modern era, people might be educated, but seriously, education is not everything, moral values, sincereity and everything, i think that it is really something we "educated people" should learn from them.
If we are really educated, we should put our knowledge to good use instead of using the english we learnt to type complaint letters or anything.
Really, to me, those did not show that you are educated. It only makes you unreasonable.


just because someone cannot speak english does not make them china.
are you sure all singaporeans are english educated?
We should not over generalise like how we hate it when they just say that all singaporeans are rude or something,
i do have china friends and they are good and nice fine people, so whats up man?
tsk, seriously.
thats all i want to say.
tatas!

Growing up

Just taking a few minutes to type this short post..
say that i am slow to notice or that i have failed to admit,
but seriously,
blogs are dying out issn't it?


it seems like just ytd when i posted something and people comment and everyday, the first thing on my list will be to check out my friend's blog when i switch on the computer.
but gradually, people seemed to just grow out of it and went for facebook,twitter, etc
well, it is not that i don't like them,
they are equally awesome channels to communicate with friends but idk why i prefer blogs.
i mean seriously, when i read blogs, even simple posts like what you do in a boring day makes me feel more intimate, LOL sounds wrong,
but what i meant is that when you blog, you go all the way down to the details and even add your personal feelings and stuff,
it makes the reader feel like he/she is just there with you
and the blogger to actually have a more detailed memory when he/she read their posts in the future..
but through twitter and facebooks, there are word limits and usually long posts are not welcomed.
so, it ended up more plain and simple


for example, you wanted to share about the camp, how awesome it is
and in facebook or twitter,
all you can write is, "OMG THE CAMP IS AWESOME!"
the 3day 2night camp is just compacted into 7 words.
and for those who didn went for the camp, they are forever lost, they can never join the conversation by commenting or liking.
ok yeah, i almost forgot this is just a example. LOL
yeah, but if you chose to post about it,
you can type things like
"Omg, i went for the camp with xxx and yyy, we had a great time doing....."
and you list out all the details
and your friend will get to know more about the whole thing and yeah, no gaps and stuff.


yes, in facebook you can still choose to comment and find out more,
but who will really go down the details when they are all high about the event or something?
they will just summarise it into
"oh, we went for a camp, and it is awesome"
well, thankyou for you information,
thank you very much cause i can't really see from the picture that you went for a camp and had a great time from your status,
yeap, i totally have no brains,
thanks :)
it is retarded man,
and all you can reply is " oh is that so? haha!That's great! :D"
or something like that.
end of storyyyyyyy


In the past, we spend most of the time typing out the fullll details of the event,
so that the reader understands what is going on,
but now?
we spend just a few seconds to use "awesome" to describe the whole trip.
good job man.
but i have to admit, recently i have been using lots of "awesome"
gah.
time to update my vocabulary.
It is fantastic!
HAHHAHAAA
maybe i should search for a more "awesome" word xDD
yeap,
time to go~!
by the way, today is my last paper :)
i smell freedommm~ :D
tatas!

Next!

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle, everytime you will find one new piece and create a bigger and clearer picture.
First you start off with the borders, not really sure how the puzzle will turn out,
without realising ,gradually forming the borders and occasionally getting bored, confused, tired, sick of putting the puzzles together.
some don't fit,
or some you thought don't fit
and some you have yet to find the missing pieces.
but when one thing i am sure of,
each and everytime you managed to fix one piece in, you get one step closer to the goal,
and no matter what, it is something you have invested time and effort in,
and the result will be what you have planned or wanted it to turn out.
So, if you are someone who is constantly throwing the puzzle pieces away,
the whole puzzle gets smaller and smaller and thus, less satisfying.
people who are willing to keep the pieces and appreciate their worth will eventually find a place to fit the pieces in.
So yes, don't ever throw away any pieces of the puzzle.
LOL!


Seriously, whats up with me man?
i quite get what i mean but not quite get what i mean,
hmm, nvm, i shall just leave it there and in the future, i may look back and debate/agree with what i have typed.
hahhahah! :D
yeap, so i am almost done with my papers,
only left with 2 more MCQs and I WILL BE FREEEE!
haha, and just to show off abit,
i will be quite busy after that.
as in from 22nov onwards~ :DDDD
22-24 nov, i am having RED camp! yay! can't wait for the activitiesss! :DDD
and on 23nov, i actually have prom, ah, things will work out eventually, i want the graduation bearrr!!
25-26 i am having guzheng camp
and 27 nov onwards, will be wooooooorrrrrkkkkkkkkiiinnnnnngggggggg :D
yes
i.will.be.w.o.r.k.i.n.g~! :DDD
joyjoyjoy! :D


i know you might be snickering as you read because i look like a retard that actually look forward to muscle aches, labour,and more labour.
hello, i am aware of that ok!
and even though i don't look forward to those, i look forward to earning my own pocket moneyyy! :DDD
ONE GIANT STEP TO INDEPENDENCE *HMPH* :DDD
and nope, i am not wasting what i earn like some ignorant kid ok!!
i am actually saving up those money to buy my own laptop~! :DD
for poly use of course!!
well, i have to admit i will spend sommmmeeee of the money,
but definitely not all for personal use :D
about 80% will go to my laptop! :DDDD
yay! INDEPENDENCEEEE!!! BANZAII!


heeheeheehee!
i guessed the job experience will add more pieces to my puzzle! :DDD
hahahha! *random*
ok,
wish me luck for everything!!
tatas! :D

WEEEE

Next week, is gonna be crazzzzzzzyyyyyy :D
monday: Amath ( one of my weakest sub)
Tuesday : Amath and Chem paper 2 ( two of my most scared, so scared that i am even thinking of MC-ing it subs :((( )
Wednesday: Study like shit day
Thursday: 3 papers day -______- ( POA, POA, Bio. kill me man.)
Friday: Vomit all you memorised day ( SS SuckS :((()


but i will have to say, after that weekkkk,
I WILL BE LIKE HALF FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
i will one be left with history and paper 1s
i love it mannnnn!
next week seemed so long and like my life or death gate ( literally)
but yes, next week is extremely important.
godblessme
buddhablessme mannnn!
i am gonna transfer all of my this year's luck on this one week.
*cross fingers!!*


so far, i am done with only chinese, english and emath.
well, i have posted about english.
but i do have high hopes for Emath.
but knowing that if i am ok with it, many will be,
so, i hope for at least a A2 but best, A1. :)
only two subs down and i am sort of exhausted.
but yes, i am gonna burn all my fuel for next week and even the incense arghhhh
i want to do wellll!!!


Seriously, i don't get why people aim for like what? 9As?
when all the school looks at is your L1 R5 or L1 R4.
o-o
imagine you got your 9As, but all A2s
and your L1 R5 is like what? 12?
and this fella he/she only worked hard for some subs and got like 6 A1s and L1R5 6
it is half the difference man.
yeah so i am strategising,
i am not letting chemistry or amath hinder me.
all i have to do will be to do my best for english, emath, chinese, bio and poa.
good.
and if L1R5,
add my humanities.
So, chemistry and amaths is totally not affecting me! yay-ness! :DDDDDD


what i believe is that the subs you are good at, will lead you to the course you will be good at.
if you are bad at chem, and that course still require chem.
the fact that they REQUIRE chem makes it clear that you are gonna have to use chem,
so yeah, don't make your life so hard man.
i am just gonna settle with what i have and can. HAHAHHHAHAHA! :DDDD


yeap, next week will be crazy, but i will be even MORE crazy once next week is over.
Oleh! :D
tatas!^~^

English

Yeah, i guess some might be curious, for it may be just for myself.
English Os is over.
and done with.
ah well, no use whining over spilled milk.
i didn't cry. nope, thats why i replaced it with "whine" :D
what a smart alec i am.
anws, well, i wrote freedom for my essay.
argh, we did this exact question for mids.
and well, it is kind of easy and difficult.
cause at that point of time, i was wondering if i should reproduce my previous essay which actually got me like 23/30 marks.
but yeah, stupidity killed the cat.
i didn't.
i just smartly think of a new idea on the spot
and of course, it is not a fab one.
dang.


but i am kind of happy with the plot.
i am quite sure it should be rare??
what i actually predict that will be common is:
1. Parent's overly control and you gain freedom eventually.
2. Got out of jail. ( describe feelings of finally gaining freedom and how much it sucks in the jail?)
3. You set a animal free
4. You broke your relationshio with someone( bf,gf,parents) and freed yourself.
5. YOu got stucked somewhere and is free.


yeah, my essay that previously got me awesome 23/30 marks is about me getting stucked in a container.
or cargo or whatever you call it.
yeah and i guessed that since it is something that our teacher actually suggested and pointed out,
many people would have tried it.
and yeah, my guess is right,
two of my best buddies wrote something like my story, just that they are trapped in a lift.
but this time, i chose to write something of a mix.


initially, i wanted to write about getting out of jail.
but i wanted the ending to be special, so i actually want the person to still be a bad guy after he is released.
but i cannot find myself describing a jail well and being a total bad guy well.
so i chose the other plot.
i chose to write about me being freed from child labour.
i am kind of happy with the plot but god knows what is going through my mind.
i wrote 2 essays with 2 different endings.
one is that i gained freedom with all the other kids.
the other is kind of halfway, cause i didn't have time.
actually you can say that i didn complete.
argh,
but i submit the like not really complete oneeeeeee!
my ending for the second one is kind of like a cliffhanger.
i just say,
i ran and a hand grabbed me,
i shut my eyes tight and smiled.
it might be short and brief, but i am free.
i am pissed at myself for not saying
" i am FINALLY free"
but just ended it with i am free.
argh, bastardd.


and yes, i never have the chance to say who grabbed me, which makes it cliffhanger.
dang.
it might make it cool( i mean the cliffhanger) but worse part is i didn really add in good phrases or checked my grammar because i took like 1hour 30 mins to write 3 essays ( including the letter)
i am typing this not to show off( but yes, i admit i didn know i can write so much in such a short time till ytd, ah well.)
but because of that, i feel that i sort of screwed things up.
argh.
i hope cambridge is kind to usssssss :(((
english compre is not my forte, so lets just put that aside but this time's summary is seriously long.
i have got like 195 words on my freaking first draftt!
thats madness.
but on my second, i am running out of time so i just cross my fingers and wrote 155words.
haha! bet cambridge will count my words.
because it actually seemed longer.
like much longer.
opps?
ah well, it is over.
i hope i can get a B4 at least.
you must be like WHUT?! YOU SAY UNTIL LIKE YOU DID BADLY BUT YOU WANT A BEEFOURRR?
yes, i want a B4. :)


i better work hard for my other subs so that i can get a L1 R4 below 10.
tatas.

Leaving

Ok, this never really crossed my mind till today?
i can't believe we are leaving.
i mean like no matter how much i hate the school, some teachers, or whatsoever,
i cannot deny the fact that i have spent like 4 years of my youth in this place called "school"
and like it or not, i did have some sentiments with this place called "school"
well, most would say that school is a place to study, gain new knowledge and blah blah blah.
but get real people!
i feel that school is a place to actually meet new friends and have time to be together.
when we grow up,
and when we get into working like,
time will be more sacred and you will probably start to have boyfriend, family and collagues to entertain.
so in school, it is actually the best-est place to meet all kinds of people from all walks of life and be friends with them.
these friend are gonna be like you hardcore soulmate man.
if you haven't found one yet,
keep looking in other places like "school"
but trust me, i think school actually helps us to save up lots of hardwork in the search.


i would probably miss the not-so-tasty-but-cheap food found in "schools"
they might not be like 5-star worthy good,
but they are nonetheless edible.
so yeap, and as long as you are with the right company, i bet you dont even remember the taste of the food because you are so damn busy talking!
even with 5-stars food quality, without firends, eating alone is so plain,dull and boring.
the feeling of being alone sucks.
it sucks so much that even the food will suck.
so in school, we can actually have time to eat together and stuff is really something cool and something to appreciate i guess.


Why am i all of a sudden so "emotional"?
well, today we sort of did a farewell party for our guzheng instructor.
when i was in the auditorium, i wasn't even this sad man, when all the teacher gave us farewell messages and cried and stuff.
but today it kind of really hit me hard in the head or something.
through this cca, i have met plenty of awesome friends.
they each have their own good traits and stuff and all soooo lovable and yeah, of course great friends and fun to be with.
idk why but i love all my cca peers.
we have really been through thick and thin from 2 SYFs and many many fun activities.
and we have really bonded like one big family.
well, the fact that we actually have quarrels actually made me feel that this group of us is so close.
we just argue, patch and end up eating tgt and laughing and stuff.
idk how proud i was when like 15? or 17 ? of us just sashay our way into the pizza hut and claim the longest table for ourselves.
just how awesome can we be?!?
we party like wild animals and laughed like mad and best part,
even during recess,
quite oddly, instead of sitting with our class mates, we actually sit tgt as a cca and stuff
ok that is technically a cheat cause most of the members are actually my classmate.
but just how cool are we?
we, despite the fact that we are in different class, still bother to come tgt or find and just even walk by and tease each other when we are in the canteen, just how close are we?!?! :DDDD
we know each other almost like we are old friends! ( which we actually are, like 4 years in the same cca? no joke man!)


i have wrote like idk, maybe 3 or 4 drafts for penglaoshi's letter,
haha! awkward much? it took me like 3hours to finalise it.
but in the end i cut away some parts.
Initially, i wanted to recount and sort of confess,
that sec1 and sec 2 is the most awesome time i ever had.
but in the end, i felt kind of guilty by actually indirectly saying that i might not enjoy sec3 and 4 life so yeah, i cancelled it out.
but i just want to type what i intended to write to her here.
well, it start of from the very very beginning.


In the start , we are just a newly established cca, with 1 insturctor whom don't know anything about us and stuff.
we have absolutely no knowledge about this unique instrument called guzheng and we totally have to start from scratch.
it is not easy you know,
we have to share the instruments amongst 2 or sometimes, even 3.
the mere few hours is practice is not really sufficient for us to learn much but we just let the year pass just like that.
but things reallly start to change when we decided to take part in the SYF in 2009.
everyone is excited, eager, anxious.
practices were intense.
but at that time, it is because the fact that no one is complaining and everyone's efforts that actually motivates me to do my best.
for once in my life, i actually want to put in all my efforts for something.
the feeling is just soo refreshing.
the tough practices actually bonded us,
we encouraged one another, eat together and even saw people cry.
being a newly established cca, we are not expected much.
actually, i think the school is not even expecting anything from us.
our intense practices were just cast aside and ignored.
Some teachers even insulted us and gave us some weird names and spreaded weird rumours about us.
but it did not discourage us,
but in fact, made us very firm that we are gonna prove them wrong.
our hard work did not fail us at all,
we got a Gold and shocked the whole school.
And from that point onwards, it is almost like a magic being casted,
all our weariness are gone,
turned into pure joy.
oh boy, how i miss those days.
i really love my cca.


this post is getting kind of long,
haha, thats kinds of sums it up,
i guess i will actually miss my school just for abit after i graduate afterall :)
tatas!^~^

SOON

Soon.
Soon, everything will be over, i will be acting ike a crazy girl on drugs and no one will give a damn :D
Soon, i will start all my enriching activities, and bury myself in books.
Soon, i will start working and earn my own pocket money :DDDD!!
Soon, i will have no one asking me to study like it is life and death.
Soon, the year will come to an end and i will have no homeworks for 4 months! ^^
Soon, i will have all the time in the world to meet and catch up and play with my awesome friends!!! <3
Soon,
Soon,
Soooooon.
:D



this is the first time i look forward to december soooo much!!! ^~^!!!
tatas!

Hey babe :)

Yo fellas! :D
i am currently escaping from textbooks and taking a long break for myself
i mean like despite the fact that i did skip school, i am at home, and actually slept my afternoon away.
oh blame the sweet weather, it is just too alluring for me.
LOL
but nevertheless, i shall credit the skipping for my increase in progress :)
yesyesyes, but compared to my nerd friends , i still have a longggg way to go
and by nerds, i am praising them, yo future bosses!


lately i cut down on my computer time * claps*
but yeah, i still need to restrict myself from daydreaming.
call me a nerd or whatsoever, but the moment O levels is over, i will borrow tons and tons of books to make up for the time i have lost with them to study.
i loooove books.
i love book especially those that can suck me into another world,
you can call me an addict, i never get sick of that feeling but always ask for more.
i just get sooooo absorbed in the book that i can sit there for like 4-5 hours reading it and eventually end up with sore necks but big smiles.
ah, how i hope i have such keen interest in textbooks.
hahhaha!


But actually, studying SS is kinda fun,
if there are no such extreme examinations, i guess i might actually enjoy studying.
but life is unfair.
lets just blame on this fast paced world that constantly rushes us to grow up.
kids these days may be smart or bratty,
but i pity them,
at least i actually enjoyed something called childhood,
but i wonder if they actually know what it means or even had one.
with all the nutritions avaliable,
i think that even when their minds refuse to grow, their body will.
hah, i wonder what will the future look like.


funny that i even think of it,
future.
it certainly seems so far and surreal. i guess :/
now, my current generation ,
i bet all of them are thinking that "i will just get over this exams and TADA!"
thats it.
they never really thought that far.
even i am slightly surprised that i even mentioned it.
hahahah.
but yes, i definitely look forward to life after this examination,
and it will definitely come,
just in the blink of an eye,
i bet it will be 10 times better.
if not I will make it so.


tatas! :)

Olla

No worries, it is not my notes so you dont have to go like "OMG ,zhenyun is studying so hard?!"
yeap.
but i will, in likeeeee 15 mins?
after i type this post :D
such a dedicated blogger~ :D
anyways,
just a good news to share,
my sister is back from hong kong, yeap, still in one piece and living XD
and fianlly, she bought normal gifts for us! ^^
she got me a watch, which is quite nice and carries an antique feeling,
and 2 keychains,
and a glow in the dark shirt
and some other stuff that we share~
weeeeeeeeee!


yeap, and i am here to declare that i am skipping school.
Hurhur, your friend here have become a bad kiddddd~
but compared to that, i feel that what is more important will be my results
if they are understanding enough,
they will understand that i cannot study at school.
it is just too disturbing.
just how disturbing,
maybe friends talking to you?
maybe cute little juniors screaming their heads off when you are taking prelims?
hmmm, those are enough to piss you off
and to that dear junior if you are reading this, ( probably not),
just inform me a little when you are taking your prelims :)
i would love to come back to give you a hand ;) (nah, just joking)


yeap, so thats why i am staying home
the travelling time and distance irritates me too.
it makes me so lethargic.
Grrrrrrrrrr!
but i bet the school will never understand :)
if they are that understanding will not only give us study break only when it is like what?
17 october?
hahah! as if thats enough!
we, too, know that we are running out of time,
so i think it will be better for me,who is taking the exam,to decide what is best for me.
thankyouverymuch.


The school is always ironic.
they will just keep saying
"Ultimately, it is you who are taking the exams."
then please leave the bloody time management to meeeeeeeeeeeee D:
arghhhh!
and oh yes, when i go back to school now, all they will do is give me papers after papers to practice
but what i need is time to practice more of what i am weak at instead of just blindly doing papers!
we need to strategise! like the school said,
we need to strategise so why can't they just understand such simple rationales?
tsk.


i am off,
tatas

Just Wait and SEE

ticktockticktock.
time is slipping out of my hands as i am idling and typing this away,
but i think that it is worth it.
Whether people read it or not, this web is a place for me to type all my feelings and everything.
well, i have a confession to make.


i haven't been doing well for my prelims.
i barely passed most subjects and to be honest, i am disappointed.
when my parents asked questions whether it is out of concern or out of curiousity,
i always try to avoid it
or sometimes, i just give them a brief reply and try to act nonchalant about it.
but honestly i am not deep down.


deep down, i am desperately trying to avoid studies.
i am scared.
i am scared that what if i studied and things still won't go well?
what if i tried and it turns out i am trying too hard?
many questions are racing through my mind.
so everytime i think about it, i just get to vexed and i couldn't do anything.
which subject should i start first?
what if i forget what i studied on that very day?
will hardcore studying work?
is it too late now?
everytime when i sit infront of the computer , at times, such questions will flash in my mind, just like a subconscious mind reminding me.
but at that time, i will just brush it and and ignore it or avoid it like i always do.
yes, i am a coward.
so what?


i am someone who cannot stay doing one thing for a very long time, i get sick of things easily and new things always appeals to me.
i am forever busy.
you can say that i am actually a jack of all trades
but people seemed to forget the second part,
they are masters of none.
sad huh?
at first, they might be the ones that shines out the most and excel in it,
but evertually, people to worked hard and have real interest in it will outshine them and by then, they will have to source for new interests
and the whole cycle repeats.


For once i want to get out of that group,
i want to have my own interests and develope it
so that is probably why i am so distracted, all the time, all i could think is that i want to do this after this and i never seemed to really care about the present
and sadly i can see myself squating in one small corner of the room and crying my heart out just because i didn't admit this earlier.
so yes, i did.
i want to set things right
to proceed with all my plans.
first, i need to get through this thick wall called O levels after that i will have some free time and i will be free.
I can't wait for it.
if the price to pay for some awesome free time without regrets is just 1 month of studying,
i am in for it.


tatas! :)

Plans

yeap, lately, i have been daydreaming
i mean like seriously daydreaming.
i have been planning what i want to do after Os
ok let the oh-so-generous-ore-sama share it:

1. FIND A JOB!!!
   
2. Learn Piano/Keyboard Piano
3. Learn Japanese
4. Learn Korean
5. Revise my sign languages -_-"
6. Re-read awesome books, which includes library ones too! ^^ *nerd alert*
7. Go hang out with old friends :)))
8. Youtube LOL
9. Read Mangas
10. Watch anime + dramas
11. Revise my guzheng skills
12. Learn Guitar after Piano :/
13. Slim down
14. Update my old and outdated brain songlist LOL
15. Play Sims :D

YESS! I LOOK FORWARD!
yeah, thats all.
LOL random much? XDD
tatas! :D

#380 post!

Heehee! This is my 380th post!!
yeap, idk why, but i just breifly read through my past archives
LOL!
When i read through it,
i was like
ewww, am i THAT immature in the past?
LOL
I didn know i am such a ________ (fill in the blank!)
i mean like seriously, in the past, i am such a tellytale,
i talk bad things about others on my blog as though i am the only human being with emotions
ah well, sorry pals in the past, i have come to hate the past me too,
and nope, you are not the only one!
hahahha!
yeah, in the past i am such a emo kid and keeps thinking that my life is just like another sad tragic drama or something,
but actually,
i wasnt THAT dramatic but i guess i just reallllllllyy wanted attention at that time.


well, it is refreshing to know that now,
the fact that i hate the past me shows that i have changed now ( right?)
yes, and hopefully, for the better
just don't take things so seriously man,
there are ups and downs in life and we just have to accept the good and the bad ones and just stay positive and moooove on! ( wow i sound so noble here man!)


Accept it, people change.
when we are in a new environment, with new friends and new trends going on,
we change.
Believe me or not, we are constantly changing,
everyday when you gain a new knowledge, you change,
but whether it is for the better or for the worse is completely up to you man!


yeah, i just watched this variety show,
there is this guy saying,
lets say if you live up to 80 years old,
each year you have 365 days,
you actually only have 29200 days to live
and just how long is that?
lets say you have $29k,
how long will it take you to spend that amount of money?
in fact, you probably only need to buy one expensive bag, and its half gone and stuff.
thats how long we live.
一寸光阴，一寸金，寸金难买寸光阴。
if you put that into words, if time= money,
we actually don't have very long to live huh?


ok, i think i am abit off point,
but what i am trying to say is that we each were immature once, in the past,
but the thing is just to make sure you don't stay that way, and stay positive.
At times, it is ok to cry and weep and just laze around for abit,
but there is no use crying over spilled milk, just accept reality and move on,
in fact, try to prevent it from getting bad to worse by doing something!
人非圣贤，孰能无过。
no one is prefect, so i guess you only fail when you give up. :)

tatas!
PS: please clap for my thumbs up worthy chinese phrases! HAHAHHA! :P

Have i ever...?

Have i ever mentioned that i actually wanted to switch to tumblr?
but i is definitely not because of peer pressure or anything ,
it is mostly because of this awesome blog i came across,

HERE YOU GO :)


Yeap, it is a awesome website with load of nice and sweet and emo pictures
hahaha!
i kind of like the fact that tumblr gives you the chance to reblog so that i wont have to go against my conscienous and actually save this picture from her website like now :/
anws, yes,
another thing i want to say is that i have, a twitter account!
i wonder who will read this, but yeah,
just type ijuzme and you will probably find me..
oh wait, did i put my real name?
ah, if ijuzme fails, just try Zhenyun
one of those should work.
HAHAHHA!


yeap, distractions distractions,
i am always so distracted.
god bless me man,
o levels is actually coming in like 1 month time,
and to be honest, i doubt my abilities...
i cannot really bring myself to study,
even when it is prelim now. i am still happily typing this away
lalalla~,
but i actually hope that i will not do very well for prelims, i am scared that i will be over confidence and yeap, so i hope maybe for a 17? hmmm,
that should be a wake up call.
hahhaa!


actually i wonder who the hell am i actually typing all these for man?
hmm, is there even readers?
nah, i doubt so.
So yes, pros and cons, i can type all my feelings here and know that not much peopel reads it!
hahah!
( noticed i said not much? i bet there are still some!! :D <3 you peeps who bothered to read!!)
anws, yeappppp~
happy go luckyyyyy!
tatas!

HOPE

Yes, this is exactly what i feel and saw and know deep in my heart when i receive my chinese results-----------------------

HOPE

to be frank, i sort of expected it,
i have worked hard, paid attention and studied for the exam.
i don't think there any other reasons for me to screw up, so yes,
i have confidence.
i just know i am gonna get it.
and thank god i got it.
Hallelujah! :DDD
Yes baby! i got a A1! :DDDDDDDDDDD


ok, i promised to like god or ok, if god is not really bothering,
i made a promise to myself that i would study hard for my future exams if i get a A1 for my chinese.
you should not look down on these warnings you know,
you work hard, you reap what you sow.
and if you didn't, then better cross your fingers and pray hard man.
so this chinese test is what i wanted, i worked for it, and i got what i want.
it gives and undescriptable sense of accomplishment and awe.


so yes, i am trying very hard to reduce my computer time and slowly starting on my revisions.
however,please don't rush me, unless i am reallying doing something bad,
but i believe that everyone have their own pace.
Some people need a longer time to revison, to gain confidence, some don't
Some people may be reading their textbook, but i wonder what goes in and the most important question,
what stays?


So i think the conclusion i have come to is,
it is not how early but it is how serious.
people can start "reading" or "studying" since january you know, but are they really really studying?
well, those that i know they are studying are most prolly busy posting what they are doing on the facebook, maybe just to reflect hwo serious they are about work, but at the end of the day, they realised thta they just wasted one whole day replying to comments on fb through their phone or something


However, i have to admit,
it is something very very tempting.
even i will do so.
sometimes, you just want people to know and show off abit about how studious you are or how hard working you are, by supposedly working on your homework the whole day.
but those people just ends up forgetting what they have done because if they are not serious, their main focus will only be on posting stuff and trying to get people to like their photos or something (hi five)


So yes, my conclusion is, if it is to do some discussions or homework, yes i can do them at the library or something,
but revision, no way.
yes i also know that the instinct to focus on your own business and the surrounding audience will help you keep you stucked to the chair, but it seriously burns a hole in your pocket man.
so yeap, no deal :D


yeap, thats all,
tatas!

HAPPYYYYYYY....~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! <3
i am so proud to be a singaporean, despite the fact that we are known to be kiasu and stuff.
hahhaha! but it is one of the distinguishing part of singapore what!! :DDDDD
hahahah!, but dunno it is lucky or what, my friend, or best friend or girlfriend's birthday is also on national day.
Don't be jealous! HAHAHA!
yeah, its actually, pretty cool you know, the whole nation celebrating lehhhh! LOL
yeah, and seriously, since it is such a special occasion, i have decided to post about it.
yes, thats all.
ahhahahahahh!

And, zoey, if you are reading, here is a proper cake with candles, you can blow all you want!

but do tell me if it really really got blown. hahahhaah!

Happy birthday girl :)

tatas! :D

Song :)

Sorry Mr wolf! not that i hate you, but i just don't really like it to see a wolf staring at me in the first post!! TT^TT!!
sorry!!
yeah, anws, heres a song that i recently listened to.
i have heard of this song before but never really read the lyrics...
but yes, good songs are never missed!
my english teacher made a comprehension for us to do last week regarding this song!


and yes, i finally read the lyrics, and it is so touching!! :))))
haha, next time when i die, and if i have a husband, i will force him to sing this to me!! >:3
i shall not delay and heres the song :))
p.s: you can actually find it in my mixpod, but you might have to click for some time before finding it :PP


P.s.s since i am such a kind and caring blogger, i have alrdy loaded the youtube here :)))

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.


We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead I found this letter,
and this is what it said :


"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."


I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears


"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."




--- Love, me by Collin raye

Have i ever mentioned this...?

ok, yeap, my current favourite animal is wolf :3
i watch a documentary about them and was totally in love!
and no, i am not influenced by twilight ok! -_-"
but yeah, wolves may be cruel, fierce and stuff, but they are loyal animals
YEAHH!! :D
they are often pictured as the cunning and cruel one in fairytales, eg Little red riding hood etc
but in real life, they are just merely trying to survive.
i saw this comment on youtube, it said:
"wolf kill for survival, but human kill for sport."
i mean we are already affecting the ecology by eating animals, and we are pointing fingers at animals in the wild and saying that they are cruel.
thats what i call the pot calling the kettle black i guess.


Anws, back to the topic, wolves are awesome because they are the most loyal creature as i said.
at least in my eyes.
They might not be very friendly to us, but they are loyal to their life partners.
when one is in trouble, they will never abandon them, they will try all ways to save them.
Wolves couples always remain together, the male will never stray or anything. they protect each other.
That is what attracted me.
the ironic thing is that despite the fact that we are humans and supposed to be more educated and civilised, we don't even understand and keep to such simple logic.
What a sad thing.

And yes, another of my favourite animal!!! :DDDDD

Dolphinsss!

i know in real life they have high pitched voices, and wild ones may even attack, but since i have not really seen a real one, just let me fantasize ok?! XDDD

yeap, you can say i am partly influenced by stories of them saving people etc, so yeap.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D

Ok, i have to totally admit this.
I am influenced by happy feet and madagascar.
hahahhaah!
you can't blame me man, they are just so cute!! :DDDD
especialy the babypenguins!
cutetothemaxxx!
theyaresooofluffy!!! :DDDDDD
heehee! apar from that, i am quite scared of them,
espcially their peaks
i am so scared that they will poke my eyes out :PPP

Yeah, another would be eagles <3
they are cool,swift and coolx2 :))
but i am still quite scared of them hahahahha!
but definitely one of the animals i respect!! *salutes* :DDDD


I still love the pets such as hamsters, dogs and cats, but if it is wild ones, those are my fav! :))) OHYES! i forgot to mention seals and kangaroos! and baby bears! hahhah!
actually, i love wild life, but am just too scared of them :P
hahahha! :DDDDDDDD

tatas! :)

Ps: it is a random post, scared that you will be depressed reding all of my so called "emo" posts, so i posted a light hearted one! :DDDD (what a caring blogger i am! :)))))

Short post

i guess i am becoming quite an active blogger eh? hahahah!
:D
anws, just a short post for a short question.
Why is it always so easy to forget a friend and just move on?
Why do we have to move on all the time?
Can't we just stop and stay there sometimes?

opps, that makes 3 questions.
hahah!
but who cares?
anws, i am definitely not going emo or what, but just a random question.
ya, if you have once been asking yourself "what the heck is this crazy girl thinking all the time?"
i guess these could be one of those :)
its random. :D
tatas! :D



Ps: blogging does not mean that i have abandoned by plan to one of those 'sickpeople'. nope.
i haven't. trust me.

WEEKEND!

I used to love weekends i love it so much :D
did you notice that i used past tense for the above sentence?
yeah, cause now i don't.
Now, weekends is not a day for me to have a break and relax,
its a day for me to ground myself infront of the desk and struggle with my homework.
and once i am done with it, i still have to stay there and study for my mock test next week.
Actually, i haven been doing this for the past few weeks and that made me extremely guilty.
my mock tests are barely making it and i am still wasting my time infront of the computer.


And also, due to the fact thati have been consistently doing it in the past few weeks,
i am lagging behind.
like behind behind.
everyone is secretly or not starting their revision and i am still stucked here.
actually its quite cool to make them admire you that you actually have a life and didn go through the torture that they are suffering now and just say: " HAHA! i spend my whole week end playing game!/Sleeping! etc"
but actually deep down,
your friend is celebrating the fact that you are actually lagging behind them and etc.
like it or not everyone has this kind of feeling once in a while,
they just want to check what their friends are doing,
and make sure that they are slacking and you secretly work hard yourself kinda of thing.
and actually, slacking your whole weekend away is totally not cool.
especially when the mock tests results come out.
and the impact comes right straight into your face when you realised that actually everyone may appear to be "slacking", they are actually not.
proven by their As and Bs and your Cs or Ds


But my question is, why do everyone want to lie about themselves working hard for it?
i mean like last time, i used to get questions like,
" How did you get such good results?"
and my reply would be " Cause i studied for it. Duh."
But for some, when they are asked the same question, they will just say: " haha!, nah, its just luck, i didn really study for it, you know."
i mean its ok if you say that for some tests but for that throughout,
you must have a hell lot of luck man.
i have to admit i used to do this, and ya, i am sorry for that.
the truth is, i really didn study for it.
believe it or not. you can even ask my sister. hahahah!
ok, i did. but i am definitely not those hardcore ones who study for the whole week before the exams,
i kind of only do it 1 day before it.
and i dont really count that much studying. yeap.


So ya, i actually see the huge red mark infront of me man.
i guess if gods exist, this must be my last warning.
i have been reducing the time spend on my computer but i still can't bring myself to sit there for hours.
hmm.
by hook or by crook, i need to study and get my As.
The courses i want to go into are no joke.
its all like freaking one digits.
and i know that out there, there are some sick people whole will score suuper high and that will make me lose my place.
INEEDTOBETHOSESUUPERSICKPEOPLE.
I know i have said this many times, but i have not done it, hopefully this time i will.
so yes, tatas, i am gonna do my hmk.


Ps:
2 Posts in 2 days! i must be such an enthusiast!

Pss:
I have went to the talk and they say to do well in a subject, you have to first learn to love it.
and Amaths, i totally love you :)

Lets be Practical

Ok, year end is coming, and i am a graduating student.
let me guess, apart from O's, most of you will be thinking of prom?
yes, today i want to blog just about it.


Ya, so today morning,
we were at the hall, and spend a few minutes deciding on prom night.
the school did some survery and it turns out that people are willing to spend like,
$80 bucks+/- for the prom night in a hotel.
The teacher finds that abit too expensive and decided to settle for countryclub,
which is almost just as good, and we only need to pay $45
i know whatever i am about to say might make me looks/sounds stingy,
but i am just merely stating my opinion so ya, dont take it to hear too much. :)


So now that you got the brief idea,
we were given a paper to choose if we will want the countryclub prom,
or none.
so, i was kind of hesitant.
i mean like afterall $45 is not a small amount you know,, ( esp for a student..:/)
Also, when you go to prom night, you will want to dress up and it will add on to the expenses.
so if it is $45, you buy a dress, lets say $20?
then you buy shoes, $20?
that alone will take up to like $65
and i bet some people will be willing to spend even more money just for the sake of buying a more expensive looking dress which actually you friend will just go WOW! and deep in their heart, they will just say: Waste money, kinda of dress.
yeap.


And at that point when i was thinking, our principal said about how fortunate we are etc,
to be able to celebrate in a countryclub/ hotel
and in the past they might just only celebrate in the school and such.
so i was thinking, why not celebrate in school?
but based on the expressions the others have when they hear that,
i can totally guessed that the school thing will never work.
Ah well~


According to some of my friends they think that prom night is a special night,
and they dont want their so called last day to be in the school and such.
and they feel that the atmosphere is just not right
and they will not have the motivation to dress up etc etc.
but seriously, if you say it more plainly,
issnt hotels,countryclubs and school halls just the same?
It is still a empty space, just that is is filled with tables, which our school can do too,
it has frills on the wall, which we can add too,
but i guess the only difference is that it has carpet floor, ( maybe they might not even have carpet floors)
and maybe just the fact that you spend like loads of your parents hard earn money on the ticket makes you have more "face"
i know it sounds bad, but in my eyes, it is just like throwing your parent's OT and hard work down the drain.
If you say you are using your own savings, i would like to point out that, your savings comes from your parents, like it or not.
and your savings is what you try to resist your favourite expensive foods for.
and you are just taking it out and spending it in just one night?
seriously, it is almost as scary as declaring bankrupt over night!


haha, now you must be thinking that i ticked "No" on the box right,
but no, i didn't
ridiculous issnt it?
i talked sooo much about the whole i-hate-people-who-spend-money-on-prom
but yet, i am doing that too.(sorry! TT^TT!!)
hah. I guess you can say i gave in to peer pressure.
if there are too much "No"s, the prom nights for the future batches will be gone too,
and i already felt very bad for taking away their sec2 camp and don't want to take away their prom too.
also, i really want to go for prom night and take many amazing photos with my friends so i cant miss it!!
so yeap,
i guess if i really need to spend so much moeny, i won't really dress myself up much. :/
Tsk.
But seriously i still don't understand why the girls need to be at the countryclub or hotel then they feel the need to dress themselves up,
why not just go in casual for all? :DDD


ya, end of my whining, i am gonna start saving up :(((
tatas!

P.s:
just to show off a little,
Shiyang, Elsa, Cher and me formed a team and went to the national accounting quiz,
guess what? we got into top 30 teams out of like 200+/- teams!
WOOOO! :DDDDDD
Thanks team mates! :)

Hello :)

Hello! great day here!
but you , yes you, you are looking at the clouds and a flower from a computer screen?!
ohmygawd, thats just so no life :)
hahah!
kidding!
its good that you are reading my blog post but just make sure you dont forget that you are looking from the computer screen = you are not doing your work! *thunder* XDD


haha, just to post,
3 days ago, was my birthdayyy~! *claps* :D
and a suuper big thank you to those who wished me happy birthday! :D
and a bigger thank you to those who gave me presenttt~ <3
love you guys :D
anws, yeah nothing much to post i guess :D
nothing major is happening in my life (up to you to decide if it is a good or bad thing :D)


but just to update you guys,
i finished my MYE and i totally died.
ok, like literally
but~ MY RESULTS JUST SUCKKKKKKKK.
ok, i shall not be too emo here in case i offend those who did worst than me
( but trust me, I UNDERSTAND.)
its just soooooooooooo devastating!
and did you expect me to say that?
haha! no way man!
i guess it is just a warning to me,
like seriously, i didn really study much for my MYE :S
so yeah, i deserve it. :(


and to be truthful, i don't think i did really well for my previous chinese Olvl too :(
i think i might have to re-take :(((((
when i was taking chinese o lvl , even when the whole paper ended,
i just canit believe i took a major exam like hours ago!
its like, zoom! GONE.
i really i hope i did well :(
aiya! but its over liao! i will just have to wait for my results :/
anws, this holiday i am ashamed to confess, but i haven really start on my holiday homework and tonnes of my firends are starting their revision alrdy!!
OHMYGAWD.
i need to work real hard man!
ok yeah, so if anyone really does read this,
do me a favour.
when you see me online on like fb or whatever
just ask me
" WHY ARE YOU HERE? HAVE YOU DONE YOUR REVISION?"
yeah ,just to wake me up from all these bad habits >:((((


i just cant help but think of life after Olvls!
to think that i will have a real break from studies!!!
in the past i will still have to worry about holiday homework and stuff! :D
so after o lvls i will most likely have like 4 months+/- to myself! YAY!
but of course i won't want to be depressed by not trying my best for o lvls and spend most of my days mourning for my my failure and stuff,
SO I AM GONNA TRY REAL HARD AND MAKE SURE I DONT HAVE TO SPEND MY HOLIDAY WORRYING ABOUT MY RESULTS!!!!
JIAYOU!!

tatas! :))))

OK, lets not care about the title.

Ok if i didn confess this before, i always feel inspired whenever i read daphne's blog.
and i know that shes not gonna read this sentence anyway since my blog is kind of dead, but yeah, her blog is always so true :)


anws, just to say a little,
its GE thats the "in" thing now right?
yeah, so i am sort of keeping track with it since it is quite interesting to watch them speak.
hahahha!
well, i should say that actually all of them are very out spoken, and it is definitely some points that i will like to acquire when i grow up.
i mean like its cool, not alot of people can express what they think so well,
i,myself, even have some trouble typing this post and lets not talk about speaking. hahaha!


Yeah speaking of it, i just feel that we should not let our emotion overcome our senses.
the current batch may hate the government,
but you have to admit they did a not-bad job of it right?
i was watching about how some parties talk about the foreigner influx, the rising prices etc etc,
but honestly, i feel that it just reflects how self-centred we are,
the moment the particular scheme don't benefit us, we just you know kind of blame the government for it etc etc.
but if those foreginers you really hate don't come to singapore, are you willing to live without a maid?
who will fill up the empty spaces for cleaners? or jobs we don't want to take?
who will build houses for us?
and yet we still complain about the high prices of houses, imagine all the foreginers gone har, singaporeans build houses, we all pay more man!
i wonder if there will be much singaporeans willing to work under the hot sun in the first place.
hahahah!
yeah, so i think we should really consider in general, and not anyhow vote just because you not happy etc etc. and issn't it strange cause adults are supposed to be the wise ones? O-O.
Actually, compared to many countries, singapore is doing well, and yeah, i am quite happy with it.
though maybe people just have to be more flexible sometimes you know? xP
yeah, so thats about ti lah, i don't really want to go too deep into it :D


anws, now is exam period, most schools are having exams and its tense atmosphere LOL.
yeah i had my chemistry paper today and its kind of hopeless, but i tried already~
yeah and my sister just mentioned this to me and i realised its quite true so i decided to post it.
she say that she realised that most exams are just testing your memory.
because seirously, after the exams, and time passed for like 1 year, you won't really remember what you learnt.
so yeah actually we are just spending most of our time re-reading and learning stuff.
hmmm.
i guess we are supposed to learn, understand and apply but just that not much people are really doing that.
we are just studying for the sake of studying. hahaha!
maybe for the certificate? :D


and yes, time flies,
seriously in jan i was like, omg, its just jan, and its still so far from Os and stuff, but now the pressure is coming and like 20 km/h. LOL
nah, thats a joke, i wasn't really measuring it.
so yeah, its may now, and in a few weeks time, i will be taking my Os! omg.
and i am totally not prepared for it yet :(
uh huh. and i guess the thing really feels different if you are experiencing it youself.
it seemes like ytd i was lamenting how silly that my seniors are making a big deal over Os coming close.
hahahah!
well, time passed and people changed. WEEHEE!
this year is so not gonna be sweet.
Good luck to all~ :D!


FYI: i won't really be active and sutff, since i am such a studious person, i have to study for my Os.
DUH!
and if you really believe my above statement, YOU ARE SO N.A.I.V.E! :PPPP
hiak hiak hiak!
i am juts plain lazy to do so and i seriously lack of motivation since i know that not much ppl reads it anyway. yeah, so,
tata.