hey~!

hello, here to blog again, and yeah
if you guys don't know or remember me mentioning, which i did be4,
but i got a brother
i mean a godbrother lah
yeah
his mum is my aunt and my mum is his aunt
but my dad is his god dad
which makes me his godsister
yeah,
and then, he is the same age as me, but just because i was born earlier,
in like june and he is born in like december, or november,
so i am like older yeah.


and his family came to my house ytd
and its like damn awkward.
XDDDD
we only met once a year,
which is in like new year and might not even meet if i didn stay long at my mother side there.
yeah.
so ytd is the second time we met in the whole year LOL!
pathetic i know right?
ok, then his family came coz his father is like helping us to repair our door
since he is like a renovating company boss or something lah
then all the others do is like sit on the sofa
LOL
my family is watching a show,
so we didn bother them.
yeah suuper awkward


and i didn even talk to him since like primary 3/4
when we met once and i was supposed to hang out with his family or something
and only that day i know i got a god brother lah!
my mum is like
" eh, yun, you got a godbrother, yeah, forgot to tell you :)"
and i was like O_O....ok...
and ytd his whole family,
which includes, his younger sister, his mum, his dad and him
to my house
and i dunno how to entertain them LOL
so he just sit at the end of the sofa for like
erm, from 2 plus to 5pm
LOL
3 solid hours. yes.


and at erm around 4 plus?
i went to take my DS out and play abit lah,
to get my items for pokemon xD
then i turn around and ask his sister, since his sister is nearer,
that if she wants to play DS
and she shake her head, so i just "oh, you dont want to play arh? then i play~ :D"
then i carried on with my pokemon and i totally forgot to double check what is my godbrother's reaction :OOOO
ah well, so it is damn freaking awkward.


yes, more awkward when my dad ask me to pass him the snack i am eating and my dad is signaling by,
pointing at him and smiling and raising his eyebrows
and i was like "What? :/"
then i guess my bro ( just for short) also notice him gesturing -,-"
then i finally got the hint and,
"oh, you want? LOL"
then his sister took and they share.
yeah.
HAHAHAHHAAHHAHA


and not to mention, he got invited by my mum to go into the study room
and look for stuff he might want to read
and they could totally see my freaking table in a bloody mess.
ok, let me describe,
its piles of files, piles of papers, bags dumped there, clothes too, which is my guzheng clothes, and some plastic bags, and some books
and its all over the whole table.
yes, hard to imagine but just try to picture it.
LOL
and when they walk in i was like ()$&*(@#*@&$(*^@&*
and i didn even go into the room to defend myself xDDDD
or even introduce books for him/her
omg i fail.
the awkwardness fail.
everything fail.
xDDDDDDD


and unless i am getting into the same school as him,
which i am aiming ngee ann poly,
but i guess he should be aiming others,
and unless we get into the same school,
i dont think i am ever talking to him. LOL
yes, fail.
sorry that i am such a older sister fail.
HAHAHAHHAAH! OTL.

ok..

ok, i am not sure why i am posting this
and i was certain that i am not gonna post this in my life
but like i said,
i am not sure why.


I know this might disappoint some ppl,
or maybe even alot of ppl,
but i have to say that i dislike being a leader.
not gonna specify but those who knows me should get it.
i dont know why i just finds it ridiculous.
even the reason why i am elected is ridiculous.
apparently ppl just finds my name nice etc etc, and votes without knowing who i am
and they supported to ensure that the other candidate is not the leader.
and yes, it might be good,cool whatever lah
but i dont like it.


firstly , i feel useless..?
like i wasn't able to do much,
all i do is take attendence...? O_O
i dont scream or scold
and dont act like a leader at all
And i wasn't even chosen to take part in the cca leader camp or something
it feels like just a leader in the name.


Yeah, and secondly, not to blame, but its the members, and maybe even the teachers.
when it comes to decision making,
idk, i feel like just a spokes person.
like for example, in class,
when we are like suddenly being asked to stay back and the time clashes with our cca,
you guys would expect me to say it,
decide it on the spot and argue with the teachers.
worst part when i make a decision,
you guys make me regret it immediately,
i guess the main point in asking me to decide is so that when the teacher finds someone to blame,
the first person would be me..?


and i was very very stressed,
the teachers would often give me comments like,
" you should stand up and scold them more, scream at them or something."
" Be more active?"
"Please behave more like a leader"
seriously, i dont think scolding and scream would help us anywhere,
personally,
i dislike being scolding and scolding ppl unless needed.
and what more we are all schoolmates, why should i scold ppl just to show that i have authority?
wont the person being scolded feel annoyed?
and being active is just not my trait,
i am not a sporty,active person by heart.
and it just adds another question mark to the leader qualities.



So here i am,
i am extremely sorry that i am earning points despite the fact that i am useless.
i am sorry that i am useless.
i am sorry that i am not a good leader.
i am sorry that at anypoint, if i did offended you.
i am sorry for some of my empty promises.
i am sorry that i wasn't able to help the others much,
One vice is charge of training,
the other in charge of stock,
and one treasurer in charge of money.
i am extremely sorry that i was not of help to you guys
i am sorry towards all members and teachers .
Sorry.

Bored

Since i am like bored,
and i feel that i owe ppl who wants to read my blog some post,

and plus if there is any ppl who want to read my blog,


but whatever lah,


since i started a blog i wont want to end it you see :D


okok,


nowadays i feel:

i mean like, everyday, all i do is

eat,sleep, stare at homework, try to find some good anime/ manga to watch/read

which is sort of pathetic?

lalala~ but at least can slack :D

but sometimes its boring,

so i dunno what to do,

and worst if i really think of something i MUST do,

its only homework

and i dislike doing homework,

its so... tiring

and yeah i usually end up sleeping HAHAHAHAH!

nothing my to blog about my life you see~

argh, whatever~

My aim!

Ok, a new target, i am gonna get myself, a

*drum roll*

INSTANT CAMERA!

its a matter of time, i am gonna get it!

but it my be due to sudden urge or something la,

but whatever,

when i am adult or something, i am gonna get an instant camera

and hopefully, it is like improving as i decide :D

maybe they gonna have this erm, instant high pixel, good quality,digital camera

yay! :D

and if you are wondering what is an instant camera, its this~

yes yes yes, damn cool lah! can on the spot print ;DDDDD

weeeee~

but i guess it might be my sudden urge again~ hahahaha!