Smile

 Hello, i am posting this just in case it might become my last post when school starts.
Today, i just remembered that when i was young, how easily satisfied i was.
I could just swing the swing at the playground for hours and not get bored of it.
I could spend the whole day looking at the clouds and forming different shapes and images as they passed without complaining.
I could talk to friends or my sisters for hours and hours and not runout of topics.'
And those are what i really enjoy.
Nowadays, i realised, in the past, how i cherished the monents i could eat Mcdonalds or KFC.
How i enjoy helping my mother or family members to do chores, without groaning.
How i could sit beside my sister and watch whatever she is doing with the one and only computer we have in our house.
But now, it is totally different. I eat fast food whenever i like.
I groan and whine when someone asks me to do chores.
I negotiate with my sister to fight for extra time on the computer. ( which issn't really happening anymore since i have got my laptop and she bought herself a iphone)


Simplicity really rocks. i love simple things.
but as we get older, we are expected to do more things and more complicated things.
no more simple things for us.
I just cannot figure out why,
in the past, i nearly have nothing but i did not complain or anything.Everything is neutral. And in fact, because i have nothing, i appreciate everything given to me.
but now that i have alot of things, i  complained, get bored, and things given to me are treated as though they are given for granted.
why?
I guess it is just because i got greedy. When better and better things are given to me, i forgot, i forgot to feel contented.
We shd be contented. Even with all these high technology and iphones and such, it still doesn't make me feel satisfied like i did in the past.
why?
I guess it is because i love smiles.
with all these technology, we become more and more IT savvy, people communicate through internet.
I don't know why, but the ":)" used by many seems fake to me.Well, for some.
I do use it too.
But i prefer seeing the facial expression, the smile on the face.
The smile what makes your heart feel warm and want to smile back too.
I miss those smiles.
So everyone, let's smile more! :D


Anws, i have some friends feeling depressed, be it relationship problems, or because school is about to start and you don't have friends, or you are in the course you hate, blah blah.
Just cheer up! Just try, try to think in a more positive light or something.
Really, i smsed my friends the day they went for orientation camp.

To make friends, the first step is to put down your phones.

Stop looking at your phones and try to talk to people. Just try. It won't hurt to try.
It may start off awkward, but who knows what will happen if you won't try?
well, i may not be a pro at making friends, but at least i tried, and am still trying.
yeah. good luck to my friends and really, stay in contact with me ah!
tatats! :D

Friends

 

Friends.

Tomorrow will be BAOC, well, I felt a need to post this, before tomorrow comes.

Taking the first step is forever hard, but once you overcome the first step, everything will be ok.

Tomorrow i am taking my first step.

It is not like i have not made friends before,

but if i recalled correctly, the last time i made friends alone is in primary 1.

I remember clearly, when my mum turned her back towards me and was about to make her way home on my first day in school, i was holding back tears.

Call me a cry baby or emotional person, i mean, seriously, i hate being alone and helpless.

And that  time, i was rather lucky, there was this girl beside me, i remembered her name, Jessy.

Omg, thank god she was extremely kind and consoled me when i waved my mum goodbye as though it is the last time i will see her like a drama queen.

Yeah, and i guess she was my first friend without any help i guess.

In kindergarten, i guess buddies and friends are assigned so yeah, i don't really have the need to make friends you know. It was about the same in primary 1.

With the help of those friends, i made more friends and the chain continues.

So this time, going for BAOC is about the same as the time in primary one, 

Except that this time, i will have to be mature enough to overcome this myself, without any drama, i hope.

To some people who actually reads this, you might be thinking, like oh come on, how hard is making new friends?

Well, different people find different things difficult.

For example i may find reading simple, but for some people, it is hell.

Well i did mentioned before that i am jack of all trades but master of none, so yeah, i just barely know everything on the surface. hahah!

ok i guess i am going a little off topic here.

So, tomorrow i will be meeting new friends, and putting on polite smiles. 

I won't call it fake, since really, what is fake? Behind all fakes, there should be some truth right?

I will just be myself, and act myself, prolly with some restrains here and there, but yeah, definitely not fake.

If i act fake, all i will get will be fake friends.

You reap what you sow eh?

If i didn't get to make any friends tomorrow, i want to remind myself that i still have friends.

it is not that i have no friends to start with.

I HAVE friends. And seriously, friends will always stay friends, it just depends on the way you treat it.

If you find that the new friends you made need more attention and neglect the friends you alrdy have, drifting apart is what you get huh?

But if you treat those new and old friendships preciously, then no matter what, it will not change.

For example, daphne might have gone off to scgs, but zoey and i are still her friend, we still hang out to chill and stuff.

So, yeah, if my friends are reading this, i love you guys loads! Please stay in contact!!

 Let's meet up once a year or something, and if i really lost my mind and drift off from you guys in the future, i apologise in advance and thank you, thank you for being my friend!

And surely, if we were once friends, even if we drifted apart, we won't be that far! JUST CONNECT BACK CAN ALRDY! If i notice that we are drifting apart i will thick-skinned-ly comment on fb, or sms you randomly! LOL!

I just cannot accept people thinking that it is fine to make new ones and forget the old ones.

Seriously, every friendship is precious. I wouldn't want to lose them.

Drift apart or not, for me, as long as we were once friends, i will still smile when i greet you! 

Unless you did something terribly wrong or you ignored meeeeeeee! Then thats another story. LOL!

yeah, so friends who are reading this, thanks, i love you loads, and please stay in contact with me!

Though i might appear cold or have cold replies, but seriously, i suck at sms, try fb-ing me! LOL

Please don't delete my contact to make space for new ones!!! GAHHHH! I WILL KILL YOUUUUUU! D:

Yeah, i realised how cheesy i am in this post. Just gimme a hole to jump into now.

tatas!