Friends

 

Friends.

Tomorrow will be BAOC, well, I felt a need to post this, before tomorrow comes.

Taking the first step is forever hard, but once you overcome the first step, everything will be ok.

Tomorrow i am taking my first step.

It is not like i have not made friends before,

but if i recalled correctly, the last time i made friends alone is in primary 1.

I remember clearly, when my mum turned her back towards me and was about to make her way home on my first day in school, i was holding back tears.

Call me a cry baby or emotional person, i mean, seriously, i hate being alone and helpless.

And that  time, i was rather lucky, there was this girl beside me, i remembered her name, Jessy.

Omg, thank god she was extremely kind and consoled me when i waved my mum goodbye as though it is the last time i will see her like a drama queen.

Yeah, and i guess she was my first friend without any help i guess.

In kindergarten, i guess buddies and friends are assigned so yeah, i don't really have the need to make friends you know. It was about the same in primary 1.

With the help of those friends, i made more friends and the chain continues.

So this time, going for BAOC is about the same as the time in primary one, 

Except that this time, i will have to be mature enough to overcome this myself, without any drama, i hope.

To some people who actually reads this, you might be thinking, like oh come on, how hard is making new friends?

Well, different people find different things difficult.

For example i may find reading simple, but for some people, it is hell.

Well i did mentioned before that i am jack of all trades but master of none, so yeah, i just barely know everything on the surface. hahah!

ok i guess i am going a little off topic here.

So, tomorrow i will be meeting new friends, and putting on polite smiles. 

I won't call it fake, since really, what is fake? Behind all fakes, there should be some truth right?

I will just be myself, and act myself, prolly with some restrains here and there, but yeah, definitely not fake.

If i act fake, all i will get will be fake friends.

You reap what you sow eh?

If i didn't get to make any friends tomorrow, i want to remind myself that i still have friends.

it is not that i have no friends to start with.

I HAVE friends. And seriously, friends will always stay friends, it just depends on the way you treat it.

If you find that the new friends you made need more attention and neglect the friends you alrdy have, drifting apart is what you get huh?

But if you treat those new and old friendships preciously, then no matter what, it will not change.

For example, daphne might have gone off to scgs, but zoey and i are still her friend, we still hang out to chill and stuff.

So, yeah, if my friends are reading this, i love you guys loads! Please stay in contact!!

 Let's meet up once a year or something, and if i really lost my mind and drift off from you guys in the future, i apologise in advance and thank you, thank you for being my friend!

And surely, if we were once friends, even if we drifted apart, we won't be that far! JUST CONNECT BACK CAN ALRDY! If i notice that we are drifting apart i will thick-skinned-ly comment on fb, or sms you randomly! LOL!

I just cannot accept people thinking that it is fine to make new ones and forget the old ones.

Seriously, every friendship is precious. I wouldn't want to lose them.

Drift apart or not, for me, as long as we were once friends, i will still smile when i greet you! 

Unless you did something terribly wrong or you ignored meeeeeeee! Then thats another story. LOL!

yeah, so friends who are reading this, thanks, i love you loads, and please stay in contact with me!

Though i might appear cold or have cold replies, but seriously, i suck at sms, try fb-ing me! LOL

Please don't delete my contact to make space for new ones!!! GAHHHH! I WILL KILL YOUUUUUU! D:

Yeah, i realised how cheesy i am in this post. Just gimme a hole to jump into now.

tatas!