Discrimination

Discrimination.
Well, i knew that one day, when i step into society, i will come across this,
but seriously,
i never expect it to be so soon.
So if you guys don't know, recently, i have started working.


well,
i have really got a taste of society.
For people without mental preparation, and have ideal imagination of the ideal society,
wakeup.
society is not as perfect as what you think,
mainly because there is no such thing as school rules to protect you, to help you gain your rightful rights, and also because there is no perfect textbook to fully explain in details how to react to every little encounters, and those, are for you to explore and learn.



First and for all, the very very best guide to survive in society is to heed your senior's advice.
good or bad, there is no harm listening to them.
leave it to yourself to decide, to try. Sometimes, it may go against your pride, but that is just society. The is no perfect right or wrong, if there is, perhaps the better one to follow is customers are always right.
but whoever who adapt to that idea is not right.
confusing issnt it?


well, customers are people who gave you chance to earn. So by right, they have all the rights to ask for anything, since we are basically living off from them.
but on the other hand, if customers have such mentality, the world is gonna change.
customers will grow more and more demanding,
we always tell those "rich bastards" that money can't buy everything, but secretly, we do hide a part of those "rich bastards" mental ideas in our minds i guess :/
denying?
If not why are we constantly complaining of low quality or bad service?


well, you tell those "rich bastards" that somethings cannot be bought with money right?
i throw those words right back at you.
What are the "somethings"? the television is only good at portraying love and relationship.
but they always forgot there are others,
Time, experience, sincereity, hardwork.
those cannot be bought with money.
you may have said that you have paid more for better services, but seriously, that command may not be that simple.
have you ever thanked the ones working so hard for you?
If you have no candidates, i have a few.
those lowly paid cleaners, construction workers, maids.


Yes, you have paid for them to work,
but do you know that instead of giving more money, a simple thank you will brigthen up their day?
by making their life better, they will start to love their job and want to do their best in it.
simple right? Everytime when i am doing cashiering, aunties who approach me with stern eyes makes me stressful and i will not even dare to smile, my movements are stiff and i will want to avoid mistakes.
but whenever you want to avoid mistakes, they invite them,
so yes, more mistakes and more stern eyes.
but when friendly aunties approach me, giving me a smile and telling me things like, " Oh you are new here? Be careful! take your time!" or something, makes me smile and i will want to make sure i provide her with the best service i can give.
i love them.
money may give a temporary boost but the upward movement of the edge of the lips are more comforting.


LOL, i have just realised whatever i have typed so far have no link to my title yet.
wow, sidetracked much? xD
ok.

1. Discrimination against new workers.
Whether it is between workers and workers or workers and customers,
i hate it they scan you with those suspicious eyes.
Customers would go to the counter with the senior staff instead of the counter with the new staff, they just hate us. And even if they really ended up here, they will look at each and every action of yours and looks like they are on stand-by to scream if you ever make a mistake.
between workers and workers, they basically, don't trust you and will take every single chance to try to correct you. i do appreciate those advices but please mind those glares. Even 3 year olds understand facial expressions.


2. I hate it when customers discriminate those who cannot speak english.
well, i am educated, but do not go around criticising those who are not english educated.
and you know what, newsflash, those who are really educated will not do what you did.
well this specific incident ytd pissed me off.


the 1st customer was a old man, he bought quite a few items and some ever even heavy.
he looks like he was in his 70s or so and yeah, we really cannot blame him if he have difficulties moving his items from the counter to his trolley, or have difficulties hearing the price, or even difficulties looking for his money. Anyone who sees that will understand and who will rush an old man? So after him, there is this indian guy, as the old man was moving his items to the trolley, he was alrdy complaining " WALAOEH WHY SO LONG?!?" very very loudly.
how loud? all the customers looked up, including the other cashiers.
that loud.


nvm, when it was his turn, i guess he did not put the item properly or it just happens to be wet and hard to hold and my senior slipped the cucumber or something. It broke into two and my senior apologised and asked if he wants to change.
he goes " HUH? WALAOEH! WHAT? " and points and stares at my senior, my senior carried on apologising and asking if he wants to change, and i asked too,
and you know he say what?
he say, " WALAOEH< YOU FROM CHINA ISSIT? DUNNO HOW TO SPEAK ENGLISH AH?" and my senior was stunned for a short few seconds, i can catch that she was hurt in her eyes, i was boiling and she was good, she continued apologising and ask if he wants to change and this time, more anxiously. You know what that guy did?
he just say KNN! then scold some other language and stomp off youknow!
thank god the next customer was nice and even made a joke out of it, saying" That one siao one la!" which is very sweet of him as it made us smiled.
but still, the impact is made.


ever since the first day, i can see the sadness in their eyes,
they are there for some reasons, it is not because they like this job.
most of them are not english educated and you can really see that they are even envious that we have schools and stuff.
Even if they are not very well educated, they worked really hard to make up for it, when i stand at the counter, i can see small little notes lying around, and such criticism really disgusts me.
a person's hard work should not is neglected just because of their education.
In the modern era, people might be educated, but seriously, education is not everything, moral values, sincereity and everything, i think that it is really something we "educated people" should learn from them.
If we are really educated, we should put our knowledge to good use instead of using the english we learnt to type complaint letters or anything.
Really, to me, those did not show that you are educated. It only makes you unreasonable.


just because someone cannot speak english does not make them china.
are you sure all singaporeans are english educated?
We should not over generalise like how we hate it when they just say that all singaporeans are rude or something,
i do have china friends and they are good and nice fine people, so whats up man?
tsk, seriously.
thats all i want to say.
tatas!

Growing up

Just taking a few minutes to type this short post..
say that i am slow to notice or that i have failed to admit,
but seriously,
blogs are dying out issn't it?


it seems like just ytd when i posted something and people comment and everyday, the first thing on my list will be to check out my friend's blog when i switch on the computer.
but gradually, people seemed to just grow out of it and went for facebook,twitter, etc
well, it is not that i don't like them,
they are equally awesome channels to communicate with friends but idk why i prefer blogs.
i mean seriously, when i read blogs, even simple posts like what you do in a boring day makes me feel more intimate, LOL sounds wrong,
but what i meant is that when you blog, you go all the way down to the details and even add your personal feelings and stuff,
it makes the reader feel like he/she is just there with you
and the blogger to actually have a more detailed memory when he/she read their posts in the future..
but through twitter and facebooks, there are word limits and usually long posts are not welcomed.
so, it ended up more plain and simple


for example, you wanted to share about the camp, how awesome it is
and in facebook or twitter,
all you can write is, "OMG THE CAMP IS AWESOME!"
the 3day 2night camp is just compacted into 7 words.
and for those who didn went for the camp, they are forever lost, they can never join the conversation by commenting or liking.
ok yeah, i almost forgot this is just a example. LOL
yeah, but if you chose to post about it,
you can type things like
"Omg, i went for the camp with xxx and yyy, we had a great time doing....."
and you list out all the details
and your friend will get to know more about the whole thing and yeah, no gaps and stuff.


yes, in facebook you can still choose to comment and find out more,
but who will really go down the details when they are all high about the event or something?
they will just summarise it into
"oh, we went for a camp, and it is awesome"
well, thankyou for you information,
thank you very much cause i can't really see from the picture that you went for a camp and had a great time from your status,
yeap, i totally have no brains,
thanks :)
it is retarded man,
and all you can reply is " oh is that so? haha!That's great! :D"
or something like that.
end of storyyyyyyy


In the past, we spend most of the time typing out the fullll details of the event,
so that the reader understands what is going on,
but now?
we spend just a few seconds to use "awesome" to describe the whole trip.
good job man.
but i have to admit, recently i have been using lots of "awesome"
gah.
time to update my vocabulary.
It is fantastic!
HAHHAHAAA
maybe i should search for a more "awesome" word xDD
yeap,
time to go~!
by the way, today is my last paper :)
i smell freedommm~ :D
tatas!

Next!

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle, everytime you will find one new piece and create a bigger and clearer picture.
First you start off with the borders, not really sure how the puzzle will turn out,
without realising ,gradually forming the borders and occasionally getting bored, confused, tired, sick of putting the puzzles together.
some don't fit,
or some you thought don't fit
and some you have yet to find the missing pieces.
but when one thing i am sure of,
each and everytime you managed to fix one piece in, you get one step closer to the goal,
and no matter what, it is something you have invested time and effort in,
and the result will be what you have planned or wanted it to turn out.
So, if you are someone who is constantly throwing the puzzle pieces away,
the whole puzzle gets smaller and smaller and thus, less satisfying.
people who are willing to keep the pieces and appreciate their worth will eventually find a place to fit the pieces in.
So yes, don't ever throw away any pieces of the puzzle.
LOL!


Seriously, whats up with me man?
i quite get what i mean but not quite get what i mean,
hmm, nvm, i shall just leave it there and in the future, i may look back and debate/agree with what i have typed.
hahhahah! :D
yeap, so i am almost done with my papers,
only left with 2 more MCQs and I WILL BE FREEEE!
haha, and just to show off abit,
i will be quite busy after that.
as in from 22nov onwards~ :DDDD
22-24 nov, i am having RED camp! yay! can't wait for the activitiesss! :DDD
and on 23nov, i actually have prom, ah, things will work out eventually, i want the graduation bearrr!!
25-26 i am having guzheng camp
and 27 nov onwards, will be wooooooorrrrrkkkkkkkkiiinnnnnngggggggg :D
yes
i.will.be.w.o.r.k.i.n.g~! :DDD
joyjoyjoy! :D


i know you might be snickering as you read because i look like a retard that actually look forward to muscle aches, labour,and more labour.
hello, i am aware of that ok!
and even though i don't look forward to those, i look forward to earning my own pocket moneyyy! :DDD
ONE GIANT STEP TO INDEPENDENCE *HMPH* :DDD
and nope, i am not wasting what i earn like some ignorant kid ok!!
i am actually saving up those money to buy my own laptop~! :DD
for poly use of course!!
well, i have to admit i will spend sommmmeeee of the money,
but definitely not all for personal use :D
about 80% will go to my laptop! :DDDD
yay! INDEPENDENCEEEE!!! BANZAII!


heeheeheehee!
i guessed the job experience will add more pieces to my puzzle! :DDD
hahahha! *random*
ok,
wish me luck for everything!!
tatas! :D

WEEEE

Next week, is gonna be crazzzzzzzyyyyyy :D
monday: Amath ( one of my weakest sub)
Tuesday : Amath and Chem paper 2 ( two of my most scared, so scared that i am even thinking of MC-ing it subs :((( )
Wednesday: Study like shit day
Thursday: 3 papers day -______- ( POA, POA, Bio. kill me man.)
Friday: Vomit all you memorised day ( SS SuckS :((()


but i will have to say, after that weekkkk,
I WILL BE LIKE HALF FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
i will one be left with history and paper 1s
i love it mannnnn!
next week seemed so long and like my life or death gate ( literally)
but yes, next week is extremely important.
godblessme
buddhablessme mannnn!
i am gonna transfer all of my this year's luck on this one week.
*cross fingers!!*


so far, i am done with only chinese, english and emath.
well, i have posted about english.
but i do have high hopes for Emath.
but knowing that if i am ok with it, many will be,
so, i hope for at least a A2 but best, A1. :)
only two subs down and i am sort of exhausted.
but yes, i am gonna burn all my fuel for next week and even the incense arghhhh
i want to do wellll!!!


Seriously, i don't get why people aim for like what? 9As?
when all the school looks at is your L1 R5 or L1 R4.
o-o
imagine you got your 9As, but all A2s
and your L1 R5 is like what? 12?
and this fella he/she only worked hard for some subs and got like 6 A1s and L1R5 6
it is half the difference man.
yeah so i am strategising,
i am not letting chemistry or amath hinder me.
all i have to do will be to do my best for english, emath, chinese, bio and poa.
good.
and if L1R5,
add my humanities.
So, chemistry and amaths is totally not affecting me! yay-ness! :DDDDDD


what i believe is that the subs you are good at, will lead you to the course you will be good at.
if you are bad at chem, and that course still require chem.
the fact that they REQUIRE chem makes it clear that you are gonna have to use chem,
so yeah, don't make your life so hard man.
i am just gonna settle with what i have and can. HAHAHHHAHAHA! :DDDD


yeap, next week will be crazy, but i will be even MORE crazy once next week is over.
Oleh! :D
tatas!^~^

English

Yeah, i guess some might be curious, for it may be just for myself.
English Os is over.
and done with.
ah well, no use whining over spilled milk.
i didn't cry. nope, thats why i replaced it with "whine" :D
what a smart alec i am.
anws, well, i wrote freedom for my essay.
argh, we did this exact question for mids.
and well, it is kind of easy and difficult.
cause at that point of time, i was wondering if i should reproduce my previous essay which actually got me like 23/30 marks.
but yeah, stupidity killed the cat.
i didn't.
i just smartly think of a new idea on the spot
and of course, it is not a fab one.
dang.


but i am kind of happy with the plot.
i am quite sure it should be rare??
what i actually predict that will be common is:
1. Parent's overly control and you gain freedom eventually.
2. Got out of jail. ( describe feelings of finally gaining freedom and how much it sucks in the jail?)
3. You set a animal free
4. You broke your relationshio with someone( bf,gf,parents) and freed yourself.
5. YOu got stucked somewhere and is free.


yeah, my essay that previously got me awesome 23/30 marks is about me getting stucked in a container.
or cargo or whatever you call it.
yeah and i guessed that since it is something that our teacher actually suggested and pointed out,
many people would have tried it.
and yeah, my guess is right,
two of my best buddies wrote something like my story, just that they are trapped in a lift.
but this time, i chose to write something of a mix.


initially, i wanted to write about getting out of jail.
but i wanted the ending to be special, so i actually want the person to still be a bad guy after he is released.
but i cannot find myself describing a jail well and being a total bad guy well.
so i chose the other plot.
i chose to write about me being freed from child labour.
i am kind of happy with the plot but god knows what is going through my mind.
i wrote 2 essays with 2 different endings.
one is that i gained freedom with all the other kids.
the other is kind of halfway, cause i didn't have time.
actually you can say that i didn complete.
argh,
but i submit the like not really complete oneeeeeee!
my ending for the second one is kind of like a cliffhanger.
i just say,
i ran and a hand grabbed me,
i shut my eyes tight and smiled.
it might be short and brief, but i am free.
i am pissed at myself for not saying
" i am FINALLY free"
but just ended it with i am free.
argh, bastardd.


and yes, i never have the chance to say who grabbed me, which makes it cliffhanger.
dang.
it might make it cool( i mean the cliffhanger) but worse part is i didn really add in good phrases or checked my grammar because i took like 1hour 30 mins to write 3 essays ( including the letter)
i am typing this not to show off( but yes, i admit i didn know i can write so much in such a short time till ytd, ah well.)
but because of that, i feel that i sort of screwed things up.
argh.
i hope cambridge is kind to usssssss :(((
english compre is not my forte, so lets just put that aside but this time's summary is seriously long.
i have got like 195 words on my freaking first draftt!
thats madness.
but on my second, i am running out of time so i just cross my fingers and wrote 155words.
haha! bet cambridge will count my words.
because it actually seemed longer.
like much longer.
opps?
ah well, it is over.
i hope i can get a B4 at least.
you must be like WHUT?! YOU SAY UNTIL LIKE YOU DID BADLY BUT YOU WANT A BEEFOURRR?
yes, i want a B4. :)


i better work hard for my other subs so that i can get a L1 R4 below 10.
tatas.

Leaving

Ok, this never really crossed my mind till today?
i can't believe we are leaving.
i mean like no matter how much i hate the school, some teachers, or whatsoever,
i cannot deny the fact that i have spent like 4 years of my youth in this place called "school"
and like it or not, i did have some sentiments with this place called "school"
well, most would say that school is a place to study, gain new knowledge and blah blah blah.
but get real people!
i feel that school is a place to actually meet new friends and have time to be together.
when we grow up,
and when we get into working like,
time will be more sacred and you will probably start to have boyfriend, family and collagues to entertain.
so in school, it is actually the best-est place to meet all kinds of people from all walks of life and be friends with them.
these friend are gonna be like you hardcore soulmate man.
if you haven't found one yet,
keep looking in other places like "school"
but trust me, i think school actually helps us to save up lots of hardwork in the search.


i would probably miss the not-so-tasty-but-cheap food found in "schools"
they might not be like 5-star worthy good,
but they are nonetheless edible.
so yeap, and as long as you are with the right company, i bet you dont even remember the taste of the food because you are so damn busy talking!
even with 5-stars food quality, without firends, eating alone is so plain,dull and boring.
the feeling of being alone sucks.
it sucks so much that even the food will suck.
so in school, we can actually have time to eat together and stuff is really something cool and something to appreciate i guess.


Why am i all of a sudden so "emotional"?
well, today we sort of did a farewell party for our guzheng instructor.
when i was in the auditorium, i wasn't even this sad man, when all the teacher gave us farewell messages and cried and stuff.
but today it kind of really hit me hard in the head or something.
through this cca, i have met plenty of awesome friends.
they each have their own good traits and stuff and all soooo lovable and yeah, of course great friends and fun to be with.
idk why but i love all my cca peers.
we have really been through thick and thin from 2 SYFs and many many fun activities.
and we have really bonded like one big family.
well, the fact that we actually have quarrels actually made me feel that this group of us is so close.
we just argue, patch and end up eating tgt and laughing and stuff.
idk how proud i was when like 15? or 17 ? of us just sashay our way into the pizza hut and claim the longest table for ourselves.
just how awesome can we be?!?
we party like wild animals and laughed like mad and best part,
even during recess,
quite oddly, instead of sitting with our class mates, we actually sit tgt as a cca and stuff
ok that is technically a cheat cause most of the members are actually my classmate.
but just how cool are we?
we, despite the fact that we are in different class, still bother to come tgt or find and just even walk by and tease each other when we are in the canteen, just how close are we?!?! :DDDD
we know each other almost like we are old friends! ( which we actually are, like 4 years in the same cca? no joke man!)


i have wrote like idk, maybe 3 or 4 drafts for penglaoshi's letter,
haha! awkward much? it took me like 3hours to finalise it.
but in the end i cut away some parts.
Initially, i wanted to recount and sort of confess,
that sec1 and sec 2 is the most awesome time i ever had.
but in the end, i felt kind of guilty by actually indirectly saying that i might not enjoy sec3 and 4 life so yeah, i cancelled it out.
but i just want to type what i intended to write to her here.
well, it start of from the very very beginning.


In the start , we are just a newly established cca, with 1 insturctor whom don't know anything about us and stuff.
we have absolutely no knowledge about this unique instrument called guzheng and we totally have to start from scratch.
it is not easy you know,
we have to share the instruments amongst 2 or sometimes, even 3.
the mere few hours is practice is not really sufficient for us to learn much but we just let the year pass just like that.
but things reallly start to change when we decided to take part in the SYF in 2009.
everyone is excited, eager, anxious.
practices were intense.
but at that time, it is because the fact that no one is complaining and everyone's efforts that actually motivates me to do my best.
for once in my life, i actually want to put in all my efforts for something.
the feeling is just soo refreshing.
the tough practices actually bonded us,
we encouraged one another, eat together and even saw people cry.
being a newly established cca, we are not expected much.
actually, i think the school is not even expecting anything from us.
our intense practices were just cast aside and ignored.
Some teachers even insulted us and gave us some weird names and spreaded weird rumours about us.
but it did not discourage us,
but in fact, made us very firm that we are gonna prove them wrong.
our hard work did not fail us at all,
we got a Gold and shocked the whole school.
And from that point onwards, it is almost like a magic being casted,
all our weariness are gone,
turned into pure joy.
oh boy, how i miss those days.
i really love my cca.


this post is getting kind of long,
haha, thats kinds of sums it up,
i guess i will actually miss my school just for abit after i graduate afterall :)
tatas!^~^

SOON

Soon.
Soon, everything will be over, i will be acting ike a crazy girl on drugs and no one will give a damn :D
Soon, i will start all my enriching activities, and bury myself in books.
Soon, i will start working and earn my own pocket money :DDDD!!
Soon, i will have no one asking me to study like it is life and death.
Soon, the year will come to an end and i will have no homeworks for 4 months! ^^
Soon, i will have all the time in the world to meet and catch up and play with my awesome friends!!! <3
Soon,
Soon,
Soooooon.
:D



this is the first time i look forward to december soooo much!!! ^~^!!!
tatas!