Sick

Yes, i am sick :(
there is always times where you are sick and you want people to know so that they can just frown a little and say"Aw, get well soon!" and be pampered~
hahah! i am a attention sicker! :D
it wasn't anywhere near serious,
i went out with mild fever and miraculously return without it, hope it is not cause i have passed it on to some poor unfortunate soul~ LOL
yeah it is cause by sore thorat which is still persistantly present, and followed up with cough.
i have no idea how to describe how painful it is to cough with a sore thorat.
yikes. but apart from those, i am fine~ :D


school is starting soon, and my orientation camp is just about 1 week away.
weeeeee!
i am not gonna go all gloomy again about making new friends again.
i mean seriously, if this all mighty gemini cannot make friends, the others shan't! LOL
I can't really talk now, if i talk my voice kind of sounds like the goblin or something that mumbles "MY PRECIOUS!" in Lord of the ring.
so yeah, no talking~


i have been pondering and yeah, i finally thought of something that makes poly better than jc,
whcih is exactly why i chose poly, i can't believe i've forgotten it!
it is that, whatever i will learn in poly with be finally something that seems more directly applicable to real life compared to the same old math,history and others learnt in JCs.
i want to learn skills that i can apply in life, more directly.
sitting on the chair and reading from the textbook, and doing worksheets are too boring.
though i am aware that in poly, we do have lectures and assignments to do,
but it will not be something i can do just from memorising stuff,
some something that i have to understand and apply in my own way.
yeah. makes things more interesting.
thats all i am gonna say today~
tatas!

Words

Ok yeah, call me over self-conscious or something.
But i just read through a few of my past posts and i realised that my language usage in the past is much much more fluid than my present.
Guess the past few months of idling at home have finally done some damage to my brain.
Time to brush up on my vocabulary!
I wouldn't want my new coursemates to label me as someone with limited vocabulary that only knows how to use simple words, such as "awesome"
However, i do find simple words a more direct way to express myself better.
i guess i will stick to comfort.
Whichever is more comfortable~


Speaking of words,
i often believe the chinese phrase of 祸从口出
meaning, whatever you said, may be the cause of your troubles/problems.
ok bullshit. ignore me and go google the exact definition yourself if you are really curious.
i am pretty lousy at explaining and expressing myself.
Got to improve on that too.. O_O...


short post!
tatas!

Changes

Well, If you have noticed, i have changed my blogskin! ^^
and i have started to blog again, since my previous post is like, almost 1 month ago! 
Hahah! i haven't been doing much, probably the reason behind my lack of posts,
too guilty for idling my time away~ :P


So for a start, i changed my blogskin! :D
Well, actually, apart from blogskin, actually i have been making changes to my life too.
 i mean, there are changes in my life now.
Well, each choice leads to a whole new opportunity and brings in changes.
But sometimes, there are just too much changes for some people to accept.
By some people, please include me, yours truly here. LOL


I think my last post stopped some where about me working?
Ok, i have got my O lvls results, and it is kind of not bad :)
At least i am satisfied with it...~ :D
Even though i got rejected by my first choice ( which is international business in NP btw...)
but i managed to get into my second choice.
If given a second chance, i would still put business studies as my second choice. So yeah, no regrets. :)
For my dear friends who are actually regretting that you didn't put JC or other courses,
all i could say is just give it a try man! Give it a chance, a chance to convince you to develop even just 5% of interest. i might eventually accumulate and TADA! the perfect choice in your life! :D
To change a crisis into a opportunity. (HAHAHHA! YEAH! my words of wisdom! spending weeks to watch about 200 episodes of pokemon is totally worth it!!^^)


Which actually brings me back to changes again.
So far, i am coping well... but i am still scared.
Everyone in poly seems to be very enthusiastic about hanging out and playing together, which is cool, but i am not very confident about my social skills.
I am those kind that don't take the initiative to introduce myself unless necessary. I don't really like to stand out..thats what i mean.
i hope i won't be the spoilsport during orientation :/
I need to expand my social circle man!!!
Another thing i am scared if is actually making new friends.
Well, since i have friends i knew from primary school to hang out with in secondary school, i am pretty much hanging out with just the same few friends i have.
So stepping into a completely new environment without any of my friends in the same course as me kind of makes me all jittery.
the friends i make is gonna be my important project mates so i better muster all my guts and make a few friends!!!!


Hahah! this post is getting kind of long, so i shall end here.
Btw, i also wish my dear friends who are separated from me all the best!!!
well, at least i could say that i am actually coping quite well with these changes somehow better than them..
If my friends are reading this, you are not alone, and lets try to enjoy ourselves!! ^^
And whereever your are, lets stay friends foreverrrrrrr! 
TATAS! :)


P/s: Just let me show off a little, i got myself a lenovo laptop! WOOHOO! :3

Tea Break

Well, i have been working from 27 nov till 22 jan,
and at home from 22 jan till now.
honestly, people might think, " WOAH, Shui, free time!"
but seriously, remember those days you are in school?
during holidays, you will kind of miss your friends and even the dreadful feeling of waiting for the bell to ring?
well, what i am currently feeling now is kind of worse..
you see, during holidays, you have homeworks, projects, ccas or even small little gatherings with your friends and the time passes faster,
but now, i have none of those and the boredom is killing me.
and rose still, i have no job -_-
most of the people i asked are looking for people who are able to work for long term,
so yeah, no chance for me :(


what brings me to think so much,
i was watching drama/variety show like always and just as the show ended, a sudden surge of emptiness enveloped me.
i recalled what i have been doing from 22 jan,
well, apart from visitings,
i have been at home all day, infront of the computer or on the bed.
and i recalled the plans i have made before O lvls ended,
how i looked forward to learning japanese, korean, piano, more songs,
but i am still here.
nothing done.
i have even want to do spring cleaning and stuff,
but yeah,
still nothing done.
so i feel kind of lost now,
i have nothing to do,
my friends are either busy with school or work,
and i am kind of losing contact with them...


honestly, i have no confidence in making new friends in poly, i am not a very sociable person,
to me, it takes me months or even years to find someone i am comfortable with.
all my friends are going to different courses, and those friends are those who have been by my side for years, and to really count, i have not make much new friends over the years,
i tend to stick with my friends, and yeah so that makes me hard to talk to,
so going into poly without any of those friends there for me makes me insecure.
but well, i guess i have to try, maybe i will make some awesome friends :)
but thats also anothe rof my fear, to make new friends and forget my old ones.
i fear that on my wedding day, or even birthday, i will be smiling and laughing with my new friends and did not even invite my old ones.
relationship is a delicate thing, probably the fact that i have not even try to love someone is because my hands are already full with handling friendships, whats more love?
by the way, if my friends if any chance, are reading this already kind of abandoned blog,
thanks for being my friend :)


ahh~, gonna start with spring cleaning first.
tatas :D

Fear

Seriously, i am not sure why,
maybe because i have just read daphne's post, or because christmas is drawing near,
which means 9-11jan is getting near too.
idk,
i guess i am someone with constant worries, i guess if you make me stay at home, i will go berserk.
Really.


The wait for the results is just too too nerve wrecking.
i wonder if i will hyperventilate on the resukt day itself.
Hope not.
i don't know, if i am left alone,
i will let my mind go wild,
and these few days, the constant anxious feeling for the results is making me develop butterflies in the stomach.
however, unlike daphne, i have no cofidence of saying that i think everything is ok,
see, that is probably one of the reasons for more fear,
i can't even say that the tests are ok.
that is something not ok.
i start to fear that what is they are especially strict this year,
and all my english tenses are corrected to the core,
i start to worry if i have made alot of careless mistakes for maths
i start to worry that my inferences maybe wrong for ss and history,
i start to worry that i might be overconfident for POA, the subject i have the highest faith in.
i start to worry if such simple questions for biology might actually be more deep,
just that we took it too easily.
i start to worry if i gave stupid answers for chemistry, and if i have gave proper terms and stuff.
i have too many things to worry.
and actually, i might actually say that i will be fine to fail 1 or 2,
esp chem and amath.
but in fact, i am not.
i want to pass them,
and want a B3/4
not a high score i guess,
but good enough to console myself.
i saw people posting about them getting best acheievement, best improvement, etc,
and i really really start to worry,
did i really work hard enough?
probably not.
but i know that it is all too late to regret,
and all i can hope is for the results to be good.


bell curve.
i fear that.
what if by right, for biology, we are supposed to get A1 but because everyone in the whole nation is doing far too welll and all my marks are pulled down by 5-10 marks?
will i cry on that day?
will typing this post here and idling my life away actually pull add on to my karma and make me have worser results?
honestly, i can't even recall what i studied,
does it shows that i have not studied enough?
what will i do if my marks are not good enough?
how will i face my parents,teachers,friends?
all this constant worrying is forcing me to stand on the edge.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Discrimination

Discrimination.
Well, i knew that one day, when i step into society, i will come across this,
but seriously,
i never expect it to be so soon.
So if you guys don't know, recently, i have started working.


well,
i have really got a taste of society.
For people without mental preparation, and have ideal imagination of the ideal society,
wakeup.
society is not as perfect as what you think,
mainly because there is no such thing as school rules to protect you, to help you gain your rightful rights, and also because there is no perfect textbook to fully explain in details how to react to every little encounters, and those, are for you to explore and learn.



First and for all, the very very best guide to survive in society is to heed your senior's advice.
good or bad, there is no harm listening to them.
leave it to yourself to decide, to try. Sometimes, it may go against your pride, but that is just society. The is no perfect right or wrong, if there is, perhaps the better one to follow is customers are always right.
but whoever who adapt to that idea is not right.
confusing issnt it?


well, customers are people who gave you chance to earn. So by right, they have all the rights to ask for anything, since we are basically living off from them.
but on the other hand, if customers have such mentality, the world is gonna change.
customers will grow more and more demanding,
we always tell those "rich bastards" that money can't buy everything, but secretly, we do hide a part of those "rich bastards" mental ideas in our minds i guess :/
denying?
If not why are we constantly complaining of low quality or bad service?


well, you tell those "rich bastards" that somethings cannot be bought with money right?
i throw those words right back at you.
What are the "somethings"? the television is only good at portraying love and relationship.
but they always forgot there are others,
Time, experience, sincereity, hardwork.
those cannot be bought with money.
you may have said that you have paid more for better services, but seriously, that command may not be that simple.
have you ever thanked the ones working so hard for you?
If you have no candidates, i have a few.
those lowly paid cleaners, construction workers, maids.


Yes, you have paid for them to work,
but do you know that instead of giving more money, a simple thank you will brigthen up their day?
by making their life better, they will start to love their job and want to do their best in it.
simple right? Everytime when i am doing cashiering, aunties who approach me with stern eyes makes me stressful and i will not even dare to smile, my movements are stiff and i will want to avoid mistakes.
but whenever you want to avoid mistakes, they invite them,
so yes, more mistakes and more stern eyes.
but when friendly aunties approach me, giving me a smile and telling me things like, " Oh you are new here? Be careful! take your time!" or something, makes me smile and i will want to make sure i provide her with the best service i can give.
i love them.
money may give a temporary boost but the upward movement of the edge of the lips are more comforting.


LOL, i have just realised whatever i have typed so far have no link to my title yet.
wow, sidetracked much? xD
ok.

1. Discrimination against new workers.
Whether it is between workers and workers or workers and customers,
i hate it they scan you with those suspicious eyes.
Customers would go to the counter with the senior staff instead of the counter with the new staff, they just hate us. And even if they really ended up here, they will look at each and every action of yours and looks like they are on stand-by to scream if you ever make a mistake.
between workers and workers, they basically, don't trust you and will take every single chance to try to correct you. i do appreciate those advices but please mind those glares. Even 3 year olds understand facial expressions.


2. I hate it when customers discriminate those who cannot speak english.
well, i am educated, but do not go around criticising those who are not english educated.
and you know what, newsflash, those who are really educated will not do what you did.
well this specific incident ytd pissed me off.


the 1st customer was a old man, he bought quite a few items and some ever even heavy.
he looks like he was in his 70s or so and yeah, we really cannot blame him if he have difficulties moving his items from the counter to his trolley, or have difficulties hearing the price, or even difficulties looking for his money. Anyone who sees that will understand and who will rush an old man? So after him, there is this indian guy, as the old man was moving his items to the trolley, he was alrdy complaining " WALAOEH WHY SO LONG?!?" very very loudly.
how loud? all the customers looked up, including the other cashiers.
that loud.


nvm, when it was his turn, i guess he did not put the item properly or it just happens to be wet and hard to hold and my senior slipped the cucumber or something. It broke into two and my senior apologised and asked if he wants to change.
he goes " HUH? WALAOEH! WHAT? " and points and stares at my senior, my senior carried on apologising and asking if he wants to change, and i asked too,
and you know he say what?
he say, " WALAOEH< YOU FROM CHINA ISSIT? DUNNO HOW TO SPEAK ENGLISH AH?" and my senior was stunned for a short few seconds, i can catch that she was hurt in her eyes, i was boiling and she was good, she continued apologising and ask if he wants to change and this time, more anxiously. You know what that guy did?
he just say KNN! then scold some other language and stomp off youknow!
thank god the next customer was nice and even made a joke out of it, saying" That one siao one la!" which is very sweet of him as it made us smiled.
but still, the impact is made.


ever since the first day, i can see the sadness in their eyes,
they are there for some reasons, it is not because they like this job.
most of them are not english educated and you can really see that they are even envious that we have schools and stuff.
Even if they are not very well educated, they worked really hard to make up for it, when i stand at the counter, i can see small little notes lying around, and such criticism really disgusts me.
a person's hard work should not is neglected just because of their education.
In the modern era, people might be educated, but seriously, education is not everything, moral values, sincereity and everything, i think that it is really something we "educated people" should learn from them.
If we are really educated, we should put our knowledge to good use instead of using the english we learnt to type complaint letters or anything.
Really, to me, those did not show that you are educated. It only makes you unreasonable.


just because someone cannot speak english does not make them china.
are you sure all singaporeans are english educated?
We should not over generalise like how we hate it when they just say that all singaporeans are rude or something,
i do have china friends and they are good and nice fine people, so whats up man?
tsk, seriously.
thats all i want to say.
tatas!

Growing up

Just taking a few minutes to type this short post..
say that i am slow to notice or that i have failed to admit,
but seriously,
blogs are dying out issn't it?


it seems like just ytd when i posted something and people comment and everyday, the first thing on my list will be to check out my friend's blog when i switch on the computer.
but gradually, people seemed to just grow out of it and went for facebook,twitter, etc
well, it is not that i don't like them,
they are equally awesome channels to communicate with friends but idk why i prefer blogs.
i mean seriously, when i read blogs, even simple posts like what you do in a boring day makes me feel more intimate, LOL sounds wrong,
but what i meant is that when you blog, you go all the way down to the details and even add your personal feelings and stuff,
it makes the reader feel like he/she is just there with you
and the blogger to actually have a more detailed memory when he/she read their posts in the future..
but through twitter and facebooks, there are word limits and usually long posts are not welcomed.
so, it ended up more plain and simple


for example, you wanted to share about the camp, how awesome it is
and in facebook or twitter,
all you can write is, "OMG THE CAMP IS AWESOME!"
the 3day 2night camp is just compacted into 7 words.
and for those who didn went for the camp, they are forever lost, they can never join the conversation by commenting or liking.
ok yeah, i almost forgot this is just a example. LOL
yeah, but if you chose to post about it,
you can type things like
"Omg, i went for the camp with xxx and yyy, we had a great time doing....."
and you list out all the details
and your friend will get to know more about the whole thing and yeah, no gaps and stuff.


yes, in facebook you can still choose to comment and find out more,
but who will really go down the details when they are all high about the event or something?
they will just summarise it into
"oh, we went for a camp, and it is awesome"
well, thankyou for you information,
thank you very much cause i can't really see from the picture that you went for a camp and had a great time from your status,
yeap, i totally have no brains,
thanks :)
it is retarded man,
and all you can reply is " oh is that so? haha!That's great! :D"
or something like that.
end of storyyyyyyy


In the past, we spend most of the time typing out the fullll details of the event,
so that the reader understands what is going on,
but now?
we spend just a few seconds to use "awesome" to describe the whole trip.
good job man.
but i have to admit, recently i have been using lots of "awesome"
gah.
time to update my vocabulary.
It is fantastic!
HAHHAHAAA
maybe i should search for a more "awesome" word xDD
yeap,
time to go~!
by the way, today is my last paper :)
i smell freedommm~ :D
tatas!