reflection

ok, this week seriously knocked some sense into me,
i shd really work hard now..
i got like 22 out of 40 for my geog and that really knocked some sense into me..
it sorts of reminds me of the race between the rabbit and the turtle..
and got the ture meaning of it..


ppl who is leading may not always last till the end,
as ever moment they slack,
the hardworking ppl is striving their best and gradually, a distance is produced,
and unless the rabbit starts to work REAL hard,
its impossible to over take the "turtles" as they will continue working hard,
and perhaps even harder to maintain their standdard...
so yeah, i guess you can say i am the rabbit...
and ppl like jiamin, zixin, tricia, yuting,zoey,hengyi, weiming, chong boon etc etcs
are the "turtles"...


YEAP!
and this rabbit is currently trying to change for the better,
like the turtles so that the distance will not be too far to catch up,
but like drug addicts, rabbit cant get rid of two drugs,
laziness, and lack of motivation.
but now since the motivation is there,
i guess the only drug left is laziness...
like drug addicts this rabbit may have rehabs, so she thinks that she needs the cooperation of her friends,
to especially not to mention COMPUTER infront of her...
yeap, shes trying her best to restrain herself ok?
since my results are rather bad so i find nth posting it here,
and making ppl faint of how much i dropped..


english- B3, 66/100 rank, unknown, too lousy...
chinese- B3, 65/100 rank, dropped from 1st to 4/5th?
DnT- A1, 88/100, no doubt, open book tests helps LOL
Science- A1, 75/100 rank, dropped from 1st to 6/7th
geog- first C5, 55/100, dropped from top 3 to dunno where...


yeah, thats like the current scores i know lah,
very disappointed...D:
i liek to maintain my scores at like top 5?
D: sooo disappoint esp when i see my geog,
dont even know how to tell my parents....
will they be disappointed? ><


but frankly speaking, now i sort of appreciate the low scores, ( now ONLY) lol,
coz i get to know the different reactions of my peers when some one gets first in class,
hear their comments,
know their feeling,
and lastly, i releived my stress out...
coz ever since last year when they know i got like 2nd in lvl, first in class,
before the exams i have heard things like,
"you nvr need to study since you are so smart."
"i believe you can top this subject again."
and wad seriously makes me pissed off is when i dont know how to do something,
and ppl say
: " dont lie larh, you second in lvl, first in class, how can dunno one?"
i will answer like :
" hello, if i am so smart i wont be here and anws, the ranking WILL change."
i need to emphasise this part that i am not particularly saying anyone...
no offence, if offended.


but yeah, and i guessed i am disappointing my partents,
since my dad especially has been hinting me that he wanted to attend SEA award again...
but i doubt so... but if i seriously want them to attend it, i have to start working hard now...
i guess it would be a little difficult since i am obviously not hard working in the past....
but yeah, time to wake up...

JIAYOU!!! lets work hard for a better result in the future so that everyone will be happy!