Time

Tell you what, if i could be granted an ability, i want to control time.
Time is the only thing that stays constant throughout.
They are the highest level of amount of damns i give attitude, and yes i need it!
Even though it is elearning this week for me, i have practically no breaks,
teachers still give us homework, but i think they assume that now that we don't have to spend time travelling to school etc, we have lots of time.
which we did, we do have some spare time.
And so, they all decide to cut short the deadline to enrich our lives.

Wonderful teachers they are. 

apart from that, lets just say i really really have just enough to manage with the short deadline,
they decide to further occupy us with projects, and twice the homework.
whats not, we have lessons using laptops.
like really webcamera and speaking into it and those.

How am i supposed to revise?

Unlike JC, you can fail all you want in school exams,
just don't screw your A levels,
but for poly, the marks are accumulative and we cannot risk.
if i want to go to university,
3.8 average is my minimum.
like what my sister say, there is a big difference between those who want to pass and those who want to do well.
passing is easy, but i am not going for just a pass, i want my distinctions.


Having said that,but  i am still me.
i will not go all crazy study mode to view my friends as rivals and stuff,
but i will try my best.
I don't really feel any need to compare myself with others, we each have different talents, capability, likes and dislikes.
why go against my own nature? it is just being hard on myself.
i might be bad at it, but it does not mean i am hopeless,
i rather be bad at it than giving up and not trying just because others is doing better than me.
I find it quite comfortable to be in the average range,
i know i am doing fine, and have people i can look up to and seek help.
if i am at the top, who can i ask? 


By the way, for those people who have the misconception that poly people are just slackers.
think again.
We just play hard and study hard.
tiring but we are surrounded by many such people, so thats what makes us awesome.
I don't believe in choosing between school and cca,
or school and relationships,
or school and rest.
i just go with the flow.
if i spend my life putting regrets, my life will be miserable.
i only live my life once. for those who believe about second life, well i do too,
but in this lifetime, it is only one lifetime, just live it to the fullest.
tatas!

New environment

 Hey people. Many things happened since BAOC.
But i was too busy adapting to school, so yeah, here i am!
i will try to blog more often!
But thinking that i need to type 6 blogs as my final project, updating mine might not be as appealing...
So if, IF i  went MIA, it does not mean anything happened, it just mean i might be too busy or something. yeah.


Well, poly life is hectic.
Yes the timetable is more relaxed, no strict curriculum, no reporting at 7.30 am in the morning, but doesn't mean you can sleep longer.
there are still lessons that starts at 8am, so yeah, for those who think that you don't have to wake up early, sorry to burst your bubbles!
Well, most of the lessons are lectures, for tutorials, is is mostly to go through the homework,
which you are expected to do, and to clarify your doubts.
So, not much of last minute studying anymore.
I joined quite alot of ccas,
which some might think i am like "siao" or something,
but whatever~
Cca in poly is not that strict, it is not compulsory to go, but best to attend.
I joined,

Mentoring, Rotaract, Japanese Tsubasa, Leo club and tried out for BA envoy.

I went for interview for mentoring and BA envoy,
well, what i can say is that  confidence is the key. i don't think i am supposed to disclose the BA envoy interview questions so, one advice is to be confident i guess.


I went for rotaract running man camp!
Well, it was fun, and i made friends,  even though my team didn't really win anything, but the games are fun at least. hahhaha!
 Btw, me and a guy paired up for the couple running man, and our team got the first place! WEEE!
And zoey totally scared the shit out of me man,
what i know is i turn one corner and BAM, her smiling face coming closer to me.
OMG. WHY WILL FRIENDS CHASE EACH OTHER?!?
but whatever, it is quite fun, though we died at the last minute, hahhah!


I made new friends too! But i do stick with the old ones too, fridays are the days i meet up with my secondary school friends :)
Oh yeah, i went for one session of japanese tsubasa too! the first session is quite slack, watching drama and stuff, but i am cool with it ok! TOTALLY LOVE WATCHING DRAMA.
Seriously, watch drama also got cca points?! COUNT ME IN MAN! LOL
Well, common tests are coming up and projects are piling up, so i shall not blog too long!
tatas!

Smile

 Hello, i am posting this just in case it might become my last post when school starts.
Today, i just remembered that when i was young, how easily satisfied i was.
I could just swing the swing at the playground for hours and not get bored of it.
I could spend the whole day looking at the clouds and forming different shapes and images as they passed without complaining.
I could talk to friends or my sisters for hours and hours and not runout of topics.'
And those are what i really enjoy.
Nowadays, i realised, in the past, how i cherished the monents i could eat Mcdonalds or KFC.
How i enjoy helping my mother or family members to do chores, without groaning.
How i could sit beside my sister and watch whatever she is doing with the one and only computer we have in our house.
But now, it is totally different. I eat fast food whenever i like.
I groan and whine when someone asks me to do chores.
I negotiate with my sister to fight for extra time on the computer. ( which issn't really happening anymore since i have got my laptop and she bought herself a iphone)


Simplicity really rocks. i love simple things.
but as we get older, we are expected to do more things and more complicated things.
no more simple things for us.
I just cannot figure out why,
in the past, i nearly have nothing but i did not complain or anything.Everything is neutral. And in fact, because i have nothing, i appreciate everything given to me.
but now that i have alot of things, i  complained, get bored, and things given to me are treated as though they are given for granted.
why?
I guess it is just because i got greedy. When better and better things are given to me, i forgot, i forgot to feel contented.
We shd be contented. Even with all these high technology and iphones and such, it still doesn't make me feel satisfied like i did in the past.
why?
I guess it is because i love smiles.
with all these technology, we become more and more IT savvy, people communicate through internet.
I don't know why, but the ":)" used by many seems fake to me.Well, for some.
I do use it too.
But i prefer seeing the facial expression, the smile on the face.
The smile what makes your heart feel warm and want to smile back too.
I miss those smiles.
So everyone, let's smile more! :D


Anws, i have some friends feeling depressed, be it relationship problems, or because school is about to start and you don't have friends, or you are in the course you hate, blah blah.
Just cheer up! Just try, try to think in a more positive light or something.
Really, i smsed my friends the day they went for orientation camp.

To make friends, the first step is to put down your phones.

Stop looking at your phones and try to talk to people. Just try. It won't hurt to try.
It may start off awkward, but who knows what will happen if you won't try?
well, i may not be a pro at making friends, but at least i tried, and am still trying.
yeah. good luck to my friends and really, stay in contact with me ah!
tatats! :D

Friends

 

Friends.

Tomorrow will be BAOC, well, I felt a need to post this, before tomorrow comes.

Taking the first step is forever hard, but once you overcome the first step, everything will be ok.

Tomorrow i am taking my first step.

It is not like i have not made friends before,

but if i recalled correctly, the last time i made friends alone is in primary 1.

I remember clearly, when my mum turned her back towards me and was about to make her way home on my first day in school, i was holding back tears.

Call me a cry baby or emotional person, i mean, seriously, i hate being alone and helpless.

And that  time, i was rather lucky, there was this girl beside me, i remembered her name, Jessy.

Omg, thank god she was extremely kind and consoled me when i waved my mum goodbye as though it is the last time i will see her like a drama queen.

Yeah, and i guess she was my first friend without any help i guess.

In kindergarten, i guess buddies and friends are assigned so yeah, i don't really have the need to make friends you know. It was about the same in primary 1.

With the help of those friends, i made more friends and the chain continues.

So this time, going for BAOC is about the same as the time in primary one, 

Except that this time, i will have to be mature enough to overcome this myself, without any drama, i hope.

To some people who actually reads this, you might be thinking, like oh come on, how hard is making new friends?

Well, different people find different things difficult.

For example i may find reading simple, but for some people, it is hell.

Well i did mentioned before that i am jack of all trades but master of none, so yeah, i just barely know everything on the surface. hahah!

ok i guess i am going a little off topic here.

So, tomorrow i will be meeting new friends, and putting on polite smiles. 

I won't call it fake, since really, what is fake? Behind all fakes, there should be some truth right?

I will just be myself, and act myself, prolly with some restrains here and there, but yeah, definitely not fake.

If i act fake, all i will get will be fake friends.

You reap what you sow eh?

If i didn't get to make any friends tomorrow, i want to remind myself that i still have friends.

it is not that i have no friends to start with.

I HAVE friends. And seriously, friends will always stay friends, it just depends on the way you treat it.

If you find that the new friends you made need more attention and neglect the friends you alrdy have, drifting apart is what you get huh?

But if you treat those new and old friendships preciously, then no matter what, it will not change.

For example, daphne might have gone off to scgs, but zoey and i are still her friend, we still hang out to chill and stuff.

So, yeah, if my friends are reading this, i love you guys loads! Please stay in contact!!

 Let's meet up once a year or something, and if i really lost my mind and drift off from you guys in the future, i apologise in advance and thank you, thank you for being my friend!

And surely, if we were once friends, even if we drifted apart, we won't be that far! JUST CONNECT BACK CAN ALRDY! If i notice that we are drifting apart i will thick-skinned-ly comment on fb, or sms you randomly! LOL!

I just cannot accept people thinking that it is fine to make new ones and forget the old ones.

Seriously, every friendship is precious. I wouldn't want to lose them.

Drift apart or not, for me, as long as we were once friends, i will still smile when i greet you! 

Unless you did something terribly wrong or you ignored meeeeeeee! Then thats another story. LOL!

yeah, so friends who are reading this, thanks, i love you loads, and please stay in contact with me!

Though i might appear cold or have cold replies, but seriously, i suck at sms, try fb-ing me! LOL

Please don't delete my contact to make space for new ones!!! GAHHHH! I WILL KILL YOUUUUUU! D:

Yeah, i realised how cheesy i am in this post. Just gimme a hole to jump into now.

tatas!

Sick

Yes, i am sick :(
there is always times where you are sick and you want people to know so that they can just frown a little and say"Aw, get well soon!" and be pampered~
hahah! i am a attention sicker! :D
it wasn't anywhere near serious,
i went out with mild fever and miraculously return without it, hope it is not cause i have passed it on to some poor unfortunate soul~ LOL
yeah it is cause by sore thorat which is still persistantly present, and followed up with cough.
i have no idea how to describe how painful it is to cough with a sore thorat.
yikes. but apart from those, i am fine~ :D


school is starting soon, and my orientation camp is just about 1 week away.
weeeeee!
i am not gonna go all gloomy again about making new friends again.
i mean seriously, if this all mighty gemini cannot make friends, the others shan't! LOL
I can't really talk now, if i talk my voice kind of sounds like the goblin or something that mumbles "MY PRECIOUS!" in Lord of the ring.
so yeah, no talking~


i have been pondering and yeah, i finally thought of something that makes poly better than jc,
whcih is exactly why i chose poly, i can't believe i've forgotten it!
it is that, whatever i will learn in poly with be finally something that seems more directly applicable to real life compared to the same old math,history and others learnt in JCs.
i want to learn skills that i can apply in life, more directly.
sitting on the chair and reading from the textbook, and doing worksheets are too boring.
though i am aware that in poly, we do have lectures and assignments to do,
but it will not be something i can do just from memorising stuff,
some something that i have to understand and apply in my own way.
yeah. makes things more interesting.
thats all i am gonna say today~
tatas!

Words

Ok yeah, call me over self-conscious or something.
But i just read through a few of my past posts and i realised that my language usage in the past is much much more fluid than my present.
Guess the past few months of idling at home have finally done some damage to my brain.
Time to brush up on my vocabulary!
I wouldn't want my new coursemates to label me as someone with limited vocabulary that only knows how to use simple words, such as "awesome"
However, i do find simple words a more direct way to express myself better.
i guess i will stick to comfort.
Whichever is more comfortable~


Speaking of words,
i often believe the chinese phrase of 祸从口出
meaning, whatever you said, may be the cause of your troubles/problems.
ok bullshit. ignore me and go google the exact definition yourself if you are really curious.
i am pretty lousy at explaining and expressing myself.
Got to improve on that too.. O_O...


short post!
tatas!

Changes

Well, If you have noticed, i have changed my blogskin! ^^
and i have started to blog again, since my previous post is like, almost 1 month ago! 
Hahah! i haven't been doing much, probably the reason behind my lack of posts,
too guilty for idling my time away~ :P


So for a start, i changed my blogskin! :D
Well, actually, apart from blogskin, actually i have been making changes to my life too.
 i mean, there are changes in my life now.
Well, each choice leads to a whole new opportunity and brings in changes.
But sometimes, there are just too much changes for some people to accept.
By some people, please include me, yours truly here. LOL


I think my last post stopped some where about me working?
Ok, i have got my O lvls results, and it is kind of not bad :)
At least i am satisfied with it...~ :D
Even though i got rejected by my first choice ( which is international business in NP btw...)
but i managed to get into my second choice.
If given a second chance, i would still put business studies as my second choice. So yeah, no regrets. :)
For my dear friends who are actually regretting that you didn't put JC or other courses,
all i could say is just give it a try man! Give it a chance, a chance to convince you to develop even just 5% of interest. i might eventually accumulate and TADA! the perfect choice in your life! :D
To change a crisis into a opportunity. (HAHAHHA! YEAH! my words of wisdom! spending weeks to watch about 200 episodes of pokemon is totally worth it!!^^)


Which actually brings me back to changes again.
So far, i am coping well... but i am still scared.
Everyone in poly seems to be very enthusiastic about hanging out and playing together, which is cool, but i am not very confident about my social skills.
I am those kind that don't take the initiative to introduce myself unless necessary. I don't really like to stand out..thats what i mean.
i hope i won't be the spoilsport during orientation :/
I need to expand my social circle man!!!
Another thing i am scared if is actually making new friends.
Well, since i have friends i knew from primary school to hang out with in secondary school, i am pretty much hanging out with just the same few friends i have.
So stepping into a completely new environment without any of my friends in the same course as me kind of makes me all jittery.
the friends i make is gonna be my important project mates so i better muster all my guts and make a few friends!!!!


Hahah! this post is getting kind of long, so i shall end here.
Btw, i also wish my dear friends who are separated from me all the best!!!
well, at least i could say that i am actually coping quite well with these changes somehow better than them..
If my friends are reading this, you are not alone, and lets try to enjoy ourselves!! ^^
And whereever your are, lets stay friends foreverrrrrrr! 
TATAS! :)


P/s: Just let me show off a little, i got myself a lenovo laptop! WOOHOO! :3